Starting Over

It’s feel weird to say that.”Starting over”

Honestly, I never thought I would be in this position again after dropping all the weight. I knew I would have to maintain it and I managed to do well for a few years before I decided to go back to school.

My life for 2 long years was completely altered.

Before College:

I would get off work, get a light breakfast, go to the gym for an hour (or Jazzercise), come home eat a good meal, bathe and relax then sleep for work. And repeat almost every day.

College:

I would get off work, shove down a quick breakfast, change then drive 45 minutes to be at class by 9 until noon, drive 45 minutes home, come home then eat lunch (or sometimes drive through) then drive to unwind to sleep for work and repeat daily for the first two months then every other day for the next two years.

Even after going to part time, I felt I didn’t have time to workout, because I was exhausted from losing the extra sleep I was normally getting so I would go to bed early on non school days in hopes to catch up. But I was so stressed the overeating began, I stopped working out completely. The weight came back slowly and I felt really inferior to my classmates. Working a full time job overnights, then going to school part time in itself is a struggle just like it is for anyone else who has their own life.

I really tried to “start over” in 2018 that didn’t pan out as well I hoped. I made an honest effort but it fell through.

But I have not given up.

Yesterday I went to the gym for the first time in a month:

 

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It’s a bit blurry but….

I eased myself back doing about 15 minutes or so on the treadmill. Then I did a light lifting session including some dead-lifts, hip thrusts and ended with burpees. I probably spent about 35 minutes total (just a guess) there but at least I did it.

When I got home, I wiped clean my marker board (that kept track of my weight loss) and planning to “start over” with a new weigh in on Sunday. I haven’t really set any goals right now I just want to start (it is my word for 2018 after all) and go from there.

Weight loss isn’t easy but I will succeed! I will be posting my stats on Sunday/Monday!

Have a great weekend!

Mags

 

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Check in time!

I know it’s been awhile since I have checked in. TBH I haven’t done anything fitness related in a long ass time probably since the time I last checked in. I haven’t been to the gym at all this month, drinking pop, not weighing in, and not really doing a solid meal prep either.  I mean I did a quick prep last week of an easy recipe (a chicken pasta salad which I will share the recipe here at some point) but I haven’t really been eating too well so I need to get back on track.

I did have the Miss World of Wheels pageant Saturday and my sleep was really thrown off so by Sunday afternoon I slept hard. Also I have been dealing with itchy hives not sure if it’s an allergy may have to go see the doctor which I hate especially it’s still flu season and plus having to stepping on the scale there.

Monday morning I did an actual meal prep for the week:

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Chicken fillets with cauliflower (which was steaming) 

My calves hurt SO BAD from my heels Saturday so I know I am due for a good leg day workout. Overall, I still don’t feel like myself the weather has still sucked even though tomorrow the first day of spring (and it’s supposed to snow) and I have been just so tired as well which hasn’t helped.

I re established my goals and I am going to make an honest attempt at going to the gym this week. I am not putting how many days I should/need to go just to go and do something. Start out slow and work my way back to where I used to be, The weather will be warmer and I can start walking too.

I will recap my week on Sunday and I will weigh in regardless of what it is and we’ll get back on track!

Have a great week!

~Mags

Monthly Update!

Wow. It’s already December! I have two full weeks left of school then my last day is December 20th. Then I will have another year to go!

November was a stressful month. I ended up losing my previous car and getting a new one all in about week apart from each other. Also I suffered a very serious muscle strain that took about two weeks to full recover from. I’m still not fully back on a routine gym wise yet. Mainly because I have to do some observations for my current class as a project so I want to get my schedule worked out with that. But I am hoping to squeeze in some time soon! Until then my school work is priority. Also there has been some news about school that I can’t share just yet but once I get more details I’ll make it public

Tomorrow is my weight loss anniversary 5 years already. Which in itself is hard to believe! I will be writing a full post about that in a few days.

Other than that there is nothing new to report. I am hoping to still register for Trek Up the Tower after Christmas and start my training in the New Year.

Have a great Holiday Season!

Mags

Rewiring yourself

In school, we watch A LOT of motivational videos. I kid you not. They are to kind help shape us into the personal trainer we desire to be and also might be the kick in the pants we need.

I admitted in my last post, that I have been struggling with everything including my gym routine which has taken a major back seat. Endless excuses and lack of motivation (funny we’ve talking about that this week in class!) has left me feeling down and out.

It happens. More often than you think.

While I don’t have all the answers of how or why but I do know you can get back on track. I’ve said it posts before on what to do if you feel that way. But sometimes you need more than just an inspirational post to get you back in the game.

Watch this video it’s a bit long but worth it! I really liked what Jenny had to say and because she’s a girl after my own heart! Because she is loud like me 😉 but her message is important I really liked the the I AM statements.

I decided to start out small with mine I did two which are:

I AM okay

I AM going to workout

As time goes on, I will add more as I see fit 🙂

Small steps leading to bigger ones!

Have a great day!

~Mags

 

 

Transformation Thursday face photos

I know Transformation photos are usually on Tuesdays, but I’m changing it up! Yesterday I came across a picture of me from about roughly 5 years ago (thanks Facebook) it was “selfie” I did with my friend at the time before selfie mode became a thing on cell phones it was a digital camera. It’s just our faces.

I couldn’t believe how fat my face looks in the photo! So I took another selfie to do a side by side and all I can saw is WOW:

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The left is me of course back in 2009-2010 and the right was yesterday morning at work. If you noticed I had the double chin going on. It’s crazy to think how much you lose in your face! I’m glad I saw this photo it’s proof that I’ve come a long way in my journey and yes sometimes we have hiccups but we just have to keep going!! Sometimes that’s all the motivation you need.

~M

Dear It Works Representative

Recently a channel I follow on YouTube posted a video:

I have an Instagram that’s private and once in awhile I do get follow requests from It Works Representatives or Shake-logy. Truth be told they don’t like any of my pictures they may comment on one and that’s it. But they don’t interact with me because I don’t with them.

Here’s the thing. I understand that you’re trying to get an income there’s nothing wrong with that or you are a stay at home mom needing a little extra cash that’s great.  I used to sell to be a representative for a company but I couldn’t hack it so I gave it up. Simply because I couldn’t keep harassing my friends to order stuff they didn’t want or to host a party all the time. I have several friends that are Thirty-One, and Scentsy reps and the nice thing is they don’t harass you to buy their products. I support them when I can.

But why push a product that really doesn’t work?

I lost weight the old fashion way: Diet and Exercise. I didn’t use any product whatsoever to do it. Because I knew truthfully that it was affordable for me and I got results. I will admit, when I joined Curves years ago, I did use their protein shakes and vitamins but I realized I wasting my money so I gave that up. I’m not perfect but this last time I just put in the hard work.

As a future personal trainer I’m not going to push my clients into something that they don’t want. It’s not what they’re paying me for. They are paying me to get fit.

We talked about that in class Tuesday. One of the students said he used protein shakes. The look on my instructors face!! She was explaining about reading labels on products and he admitted some of the ingredients he had no idea what they were.

I still have a stomach I’m not going to lie but why would I shrink it with a ridiculously priced wrap? It’s like my whole post on using a waist cinchers Seriously I could use saran wrap if I wanted to shrink my stomach at half the cost. Kidding. I would NEVER use that either. I worked very hard to get where I am and I’m studying to help others do it the right way. It’s hard when my friends on Facebook host wrap parties or are trying to sell it but I don’t say anything or attend (mainly because they fall on my work weekends or I’m busy anyways) plus I don’t want to be the B and make the comments saying that it doesn’t work. They’re not pushing me so I have to respect them.

I got to thinking why am I even following these people? Like I said they never like any of my pictures, they don’t care about anything I post anyways (for the record I post way too many pictures of my cat) and again they really haven’t tried to push their products on me so I really can’t complain. However why follow me? So I unfriended all of them. And no this isn’t a post to complain about them I just want to shine a little truth like The BIG (Body Image Guru) said It doesn’t work.

Remember just eat right, exercise, drink plenty of water and you will succeed!!

~M

Body Shaming is NOT OKAY

Writer’s note: This post is about being body positive no negative comments will be allowed.

About a two weeks ago, Nicole Arbour posted a lovely YouTube video entitled Dear Fat People. I happened to hear about on Twitter, so I looked it up. Well I was surprised and a bit dumbfounded. First that she would have the balls to post this let alone knowing that there would be serious back lash.

Before this video, I thought she was funny in fact, I enjoyed  Most offensive video ever because yeah, people nowadays get way more offended than back in the day. But after I watched this video I was like “Could she be more of a B?” Fat shaming has been on the rise more than ever. With social media being the culprit. It’s hard to be a young person in this day and age. I thank my lucky stars I grew up before that.

I’ve struggled with body image for years and still do this day. First off, I am a fit healthy 32 year old. But I still have curves, big boobs, stretch marks, and a bit of pooch from being heavy. I am a size 12 which is right below the average size of most females (14 is the normal size). So I’m not “fat” perse (although I disagree #thestruggleisreal) or really plus sized anymore. However, I know what it’s like to be picked on because of my weight. In fact, I’ve been skinny shamed too. Because I was choosing healthy options, or cutting my cheese burgers in half. Neither is okay in my book.

I wanted to write about it not to attack Nicole but just to give my opinion not make a video called Dear Skinny People. Like I said a lot of people were upset about her video and as they should be nobody wants to be picked on because of how they look.

The reason I lost weight because I wanted to. I was unhappy, not because somebody shamed me. This was all on me. I wasn’t comfortable with my body. I hated clothes shopping. Some full figured are happy the way they are and that is awesome. I wished I had their confidence. In fact a plus sized model rocked the runway at New York’s Fashion Week. That is amazing! I was the teenager looking at Seventeen and YM (old school here) that wished she looked like the models. I would compare myself to other girls because I wanted to be prettier. I get it. We all struggle some more than others.

I would never ever shame someone because of their body size. I wouldn’t go to someone who is full figured and say “Hey fatty go to the gym!” the same with a skinny sized person I wouldn’t  say “Hey skinny eat a freaking cheeseburger!” because everyone is different they have their own struggles. Plus I grew up in an different  enviroment than most people so I have a very strong acceptance of people of different sizes, shapes, color, disability, sexual orientation, etc. Let alone go on the internet and make a video of it.

The generation now is YouTube viewers so I’ve noticed.  I’m not sure how many younger people follow Nicole her content isn’t for the under 18 crowd but I’m sure their might be followers nonetheless. Some might look up to Nicole as a role model and she’s not being a very good one at that. Someone might look at that video and think the worse of themselves like as she said that they drip Crisco from their pores, and smell like sausage. Terrible.

No, they’re not likely to say “Hey because she posted a video calling me fat, I’m going to loose weight right now” Most are probably going to think even more horrible about themselves, and could lead to sad results. Not a up wake call.

To me I think FAT isn’t a nice word to say to anyone. Some people would disagree with and say that they don’t mind being called that word because they’ll say “Yes I am and I’m not ashamed” which again what I admire. If any of my friends were to say that I would say No, I think you’re beautiful or something along those lines. I use the terms “heavy” “plus sized” “full figured” or “curvy”.

As a future personal trainer, I want to help people become healthier and to achieve their goals like I did.

Remember to be kind to another in this world we need it.

~M