Fork in the road

Wow.  I don’t even know where to begin. I really thought 2017 was going to be my year.  I was going to STRIVE for success. So far it has not we’re already four months in and I want a divorce from 2017.

I have tried to be optimistic

I have tried to be positive

I tried to STRIVE forward

BUT……

I’ve felt nothing but stagnant. School hasn’t gotten any easier since I started back in January. In fact it has not gotten any better. Last week I was slammed with news not once but twice. My instructor even came down on me pretty hard the week before that I cried the whole 45 minute drive on the way home.

My job has been stressful since the start of the New Year too, I’ve had to put in numerous days of OT when I’m not at school which has added to the stress load.

The gym has taken a backseat I haven’t been since maybe January? Meal planning has been a hit and a miss. I’ve cheated way more than I should have and I have put on 30 pounds. Clothes aren’t fitting again. I am not proud of that.

I think part of the problem is I don’t have any real goals set. I decided not to do Trek up the Tower this year because prior to that when I had planned to train, I had an rather painful injury where I had pulled my quad muscles severely so I took two weeks off in order to recover. I thought about 5K the Hardway again but I don’t know my schedule past May, so I can’t even schedule the Color Run either it’s been frustrating so I have been saying no to any commitments like them.

What’s a girl to do?

To be honest, I am not sure what the answer is. Usually I am so sure of myself but my confidence has taken a backseat as well.

Here’s the BUT again…..

Sunday morning, I cleaned out my cupboards and my fridge. I went grocery shopping Monday after work. I stuck to my list and only bought said items on there which I rarely do. I did add a few things that I had forgotten but I didn’t buy any sweets. I made myself a smoothie for breakfast then I drove out to Johnson Lake and walked around 1 time. I also did some upright push ups on the benches along the way (I need to figure out how many benches they are total so I could do the math on how many reps I do on each one) The wind was pretty strong (love Nebraska) is why I only made it around 1 time plus I can tell I am out of shape! I came home and cooked lunch:

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I got some pork chops but I cut it in half and bought some broccoli and cheese tater tots ( I had a coupon) they tasted really good! I did some meal prepping too this week. I have been back to drinking tons of water.

It’s a start. My birthday is this week. I may have a cheat day and I am going to try to make it to the gym this week as well since the weather looks ify the rest of the week so I may not be able to get out and walk.

I have my final today then I start back up with classes next week!

I’ll try to update when I can.

Mags

 

 

 

 

 

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Monthly check in

Starting weight: 188 (this was my starting weight for 2017)

Current Weight: 186.5

Lost 1.5 pounds

Hello! I am posting my check in a tad early. I weighed in I thought on the New Year last month but it was a few days after that. I had plans to weigh in February 1st but since that falls on a school day I decided I’d weigh in earlier just to see if I had made any progress and if I hadn’t I would keep working the additional two weeks and reschedule my weigh in for February 7th and if I had made progress I would record it and then see how things go towards the end of February since it’s a shorter month. As you can see I made some small progress! It isn’t much but I will take it!!

It has been a week since I last had a pop (or a soda depending on where you are from) so far the transition has been ok a few slight headaches (which is a given) so I have upped my water game a ton, and I have done fairly well with my meal prep/sticking to my plan. I had only two cheat meals this week. As you know, I like to shoot for 1-2 cheat meals a week.

The only thing that is not on point yet is my workouts. I am still not consistent but I am working towards improving that. School is going I am in week 4 already. I have been in the main building of campus instead of the Annex (the building across the street) which I can’t believe I am saying this I miss the other building because that’s where a chunk of my classes have been the past year.

I have to finish my review on Motivational Water Bottles so that should be up this week!

Have a great month!

~Mags

Wishy Washy Dieters

 Disclaimer: This post is my opinion. I know everyone has different lifestyles and choices.

We’ve all heard the term before yo-yo dieters or I’d like to call it wishy washy. People who try a bunch of different diets they lose weight for a while, then they fall off the wagon and gain weight, they try another diet, lose weight again then fall the wagon yet again and gain even more weight. I know because I’ve been there.

Why I am writing about this a friend I follow on social media IS a yo-yo dieter. I didn’t realize it until recently. This person has tried EVERYTHING that I can think of. They’ve done well but then they slip and they try yet another diet it is a vicious cycle. I feel bad for them because they have made excellent progress they just struggle when it comes to the diet part (mostly). I for one get it because I have not been on point at all either but I’ve seen this many other fellow weight loss people I follow they do super great for a while then suddenly they fall off the face of the planet (ahem like me and this blog) and you don’t hear from them for a long until they resurface trying something yet again that may sound great to them but they set themselves up for failure.

My story: If you remember, I joined Curves (is that even still around?) in early 2005-ish? And I was a solid member for almost two-years before I ended up quitting for personal reasons. But I did their weight loss class not once but twice because I really thought it could help me. The cost was about $70 it included the course for 30 minutes (I think) where we watched a video, then had a small discussion and weekly weigh ins, their “products” including a protein shake and their vitamins and a book on how to do their diet. They were three phases: The first being a don’t eat a whole lot phase, to a little more phase to a plateau phase where you increase your calories or whatever then when you felt you repeated phase one again. Strange I know but I did benefit from it. But it was hard because I was still living at home, so I really didn’t have control in the food that was purchased I had some say but I couldn’t strictly put my whole family on a diet.  However, I made it work. This was the only “diet” I really tried before I gave up and gained 217 pounds.

I never tried anything like Atkins, Weight Watchers, South Beach diet to name a few I did attempt Keto not long ago and also I tried to menu plan (which was failure) but mostly I would try to just cut back (like I did before) and try to exercise then I would lose weight but after some time I just fell back into my old habits. We all do. It happens its life. Find something that you’re able to do and stick to it. For me it was what I mentioned including drinking more water, cutting back on pop as well.

Back to my friend. A few days ago they admitted that they hadn’t been on point in their diet or their workout, they had been on a program for a while (a new one) and were going back to another original program before they tried this one, they admitted that: “eating clean was expensive, it’s the holidays, and they were going to eat processed foods”.

I am going to break this down for you from my view using some true and false with a bit explanations on my point of view on this.

  1. Eating clean is expensive. False. Yes and No. This all depends on you (plus your budget) and what YOU consider expensive. You don’t have to all clean but you can do simple modifications to eat healthier. I will be doing a post on that how to do it.
  2. It’s the holidays. True but that does that mean you give into temptations? No. I wrote last year how you can still enjoy the holidays without over doing it. “Everything in moderation” You can still have your cake or cookie and eat it to. Just don’t go overboard.
  3. Processed Foods. Tough subject. Depending who you ask too. I am guilty of eating processed foods as the next person. But I don’t guilt myself over it. Nobody is perfect. I think as I mentioned anyone can make simple changes to their diet.  Also you don’t have to eat out as often (I chose weekends) or make healthier options when if and when you go out.

But the good news is my friend plan to continue their workouts and will add healthier options to their meals. I think they will be ok in the long run they have come this far they just have to keep going. They struggle with nutrition (as do I) and getting things to work. I know how that is! I’ve been there done that. Just finding something that works and sticking to it is the hardest thing we have to do. But we must not give up!

Here’s to not giving up!

Mags

 

 

Weekly update

Current Weight 183

I weighed in on Saturday 9/24 and as you can see I didn’t gain or lost just stayed the same so I am okay with that.

Last week was stressful but ended on a good note. I had sinus issues again Thursday so it made being in class/training extremely difficult. I stayed on task with my menu planning for the 2nd week too. Week 3 has gotten off to a rather shaky start. I didn’t grocery shop until Monday after so for my meal at work Sunday was just something quick to throw in the microwave.

Yesterday was bad too I have been struggling so much with school which is ironic because I was in the same position a year ago but in a different class!! But all you can do is keep moving forward as one of my friends is known to say!

With that, I am going to go to the Y today so I can familiarize myself with equipment again and hopefully  ease back in a routine. I have struggled with that as well. One day at a time.

Have a great day!

Mags

Weekly update!

Hello!

I start my 3rd week of school this week and last week was our first week of training the new PT students. I keep thinking how INSANE it is that I was in their position a year ago!!! Also at a different gym. And now I am creating and writing workouts.  What a difference a year makes! Still a work in process!

I have looked back at last year and I struggled so much. If I could go back and tell my last year self “Hey girl (yes I did say that!) you’re struggling right now but guess what? You get through it and you come out the other side!”

Last week, I mentioned I didn’t do well with the whole menu plan so I am trying it again this week. I made it loose so I not fully committed and have done some minor changes. Monday was a full on meal prep day, I made my food for work for the week with my crock which I have been using a lot more lately (it’s getting to be that time of year!), I made taco meat and I finally tried a new recipe (remember when I wanted to a while back??):

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Veggie Pizza!! Here’s the recipe.  I did make round as opposed to square and used 1 tube of crescent rolls (low fat), only 1 block of cream cheese (low fat),  half the dry ranch packet, (low fat) miracle whip. Oh and I used a little bit of (low fat) Mozzarella shredded cheese. I made the crust ahead of time then I topped the pizza later in the morning. Turned out really good! I have been this whole pizza kick lately because I have been craving Domino’s so I have been trying to find somewhat healthier options. Last week, I did portabella stuffed mushroom pizzas (mushrooms are my jam!) too.

Last but not least I finally went back to the gym Monday! As you know I have been struggling emotionally and my motivation has been low but finally I went in and did a simple workout.

I have weigh-in this week which I might wait till Saturday.

Goal for the week: Is to stay on track with my menu plan and at least attend 2 classes of Jazzercise since I haven’t been in almost a month!!

I will be back later to report my 2nd round of menu planning!

Have a great week!

Mags

 

 

 

 

Menu/meal planning

I thought what would help me maybe to make better decisions in my eating habits is to menu/meal plan. I have never really done it before so I thought as they say “Give it the old college try” and it’s fitting since I am a college student!

As I’ve mentioned before, I go with the flow on my meals mainly because:

  1. I work overnights
  2. I go to school part time
  3. My schedule is way different
  4. I grocery shop every two weeks
  5. Whatever I have on hand is what I prepare
  6. Plus it’s just me, myself and I

So why plan? For starters it will help me eat out less, not eat junk, stop relying on processed food as much and maybe help drop the weight I gained. Also to try new recipes too. Plus also to use leftovers more too so I don’t waste food.

I typically eat your three meals a day plus I suppose an extra since I work overnights where most would consider that lunch? I’m not sure but working 8 hours does make you hungry and you have to fuel your body.

I do eat breakfast depending on the day if I have class I will eat a bigger breakfast to help curb my appetite until I get home, I also take a small snack if need be, I have lunch then I sleep and then in the evening, on those days I will have a light meal mainly because I sleep later those days and I want something quick and easy to eat. Then I take something that I prep ahead. On non school days, if I go workout I eat a lighter breakfast, followed by lunch, sleep and then a filling supper.

Well, I had a great menu all planned out and I didn’t follow it. Basically it feel through after a week!! #EpicFail.

The original plan was to cook Sunday supper then meal prep for the week…. I ended up falling asleep at 4pm and I got once had a snack then went back to bed and I got up later in the morning. I did throw stuff in the crock pot for the week on Monday plus I did put together tuna salad as well, but it wasn’t I had planned originally and I tried to alter my menu as I went along but I gave up too quickly I might add. Although, I may start over and try it again for next week. It is definitely trial and error!

I’ll be back with another update I’m sure!

~Mags

 

 

 

 

Taking care of you

Before I start this post, I want to write a little disclaimer: I am not a NPC bikini competitor but I am a fit person soon to be personal trainer that is concerned with the health and well being of anyone who is involved in prep for competitions.

I follow a few bikini competitors on social media (mainly Instagram) because they are fit, they share great workout tips and video, new products (like Fit Crunch bars), and they have the most epic food porn (ha ha) but like anyone else they struggle.  They have their bad days too. It’s nice to know that we’re all in this together. One of my classmates, is a former competitor herself so it’s nice to know an actual one IRL as opposed to having numerous Insta crushes. Also my cousin competed once long time ago too.

So on Monday, I noticed a post from one of the fellow fit chicks that a competitor had died over the weekend before NPC USA happened. I couldn’t find much article wise just a bunch of  jumping to conclusion (*sighs*) YouTube videos.

Here’s the thing. We don’t know how she died. It could be a numerous different reasons. You’ve heard time and time again, that people have mysterious diseases or out of the blue heart attacks-etc then suddenly die it happens more often than we think. Our bodies can be a mystery. So it’s hard to say what exactly happen to her. But that doesn’t mean we can “assume” anything that isn’t fair.

When I started my weight loss journey, 3 and half years ago, I was accused of starving myself. Which was far from the truth. It was very hurtful that some people would actually think that. I was angry because they didn’t know what I was eating and making assumptions that I wasn’t taking care of myself. I was losing the right amount of weight which is about 1-2 pounds a week safely. I wasn’t pushing myself at the gym. I listened to my body. If something was not right my body would say “hey this hurts or hey this doesn’t feel right, let’s take it easy” I would stop. If I was hungry I would eat just made healthier choices and I did not over eat that’s just as bad. I have a bum knee, so a lot of times I go easy on myself, especially at Jazzercise. The instructors all encourage not go intense unless you know it’s okay to do so. It’s why they limit us to two classes a day especially when there is attendance games because we had people overdoing it. That isn’t safe.

As a future personal trainer, first and foremost the most important thing for my future clients is SAFETY. It is why we do ICC (Initial Client Consultations) because we need to know about your medical history any injuries, heart troubles, diabetes, etc because we don’t want you passing out on the gym floor or making a past injury worse. Also that is why sometimes you might need a doctor’s okay to workout. I’ve been down that road before as I always say “Better safe than sorry”.

So what does this all mean? (my instructors favorite question!) Well, bodybuilding is not entirely healthy sport (my cousin says it all the time) it can be dangerous to the point where it could leave negative effects on your body and overall health.  In fact, the fit chick I follow who did the write up about the other competitor dying, admitted that when she first prepped that she “took it too far” that she pushed her body beyond it limits but she realized it and promised herself never to do it again. She said “Listen to your body treat it well”.  Not trophy or plastic is worth it. Does that mean you shouldn’t become a competitor or continues to compete? No. You know yourself better than anyone

With that said, my deepest condolences to the family who is mourning a loss of a mother, daughter, wife, sister and friend.

 

You got to know your limits. Once is enough but you got to learn. A little caution never hurt anyone. A good woodsman has only one scar on him. No more, no less. ~Haruki Murkami

Take care!

~Mags