Real Talk: It’s not glamours

This is sort of an update but also I am being 100% real on here.

I can’t give a full report of Keto yet. The first week went really good and I only craved carbs a tad bit. By the 2nd week, I gave up and fell head first into carbs. What I think I need is a bit more structure with it.  As in I need to do better food prep for the weeks, including breakfasts. I downloaded a great recipe to try.

I decided to do a “looser” based keto diet. I am not giving up milk/cereals (I love my oats damnit) and peanut butter. However, I didn’t buy bread when I did my last grocery run and I don’t intend to when I go after work today.  Not making pasta/rice either.

Anyways, when I started this blog. I wasn’t sure how much I wanted to talk about my own personal struggles. I tend to be a private person with certain things because everything is so “out there” now days.

Honestly I wished I had written about my first weight loss journey all those years ago because I know it was not easy at all. This time it’s no exception. That’s the reality of life/any fitness related or not. I’m not going to pretend it’s all sunshine and rainbows because it’s not. I would be blowing smoke up my own ass.

I mentioned countless times how rough my weeks have been this year not for sympathy but to tell you you not everyone has the fantastic week of exercising every day (maybe even twice a day), staying on task with your diet, meal prep and drinking the gallons of water you see in all their photos. That I took 50 selfies of my booty pop, flexing in the mirror, showing off my washboard abs. It’s why I stopped following a chunk of “Fit” people on Instagram (more on that later). I bet you more times than not they have really shitty days but we don’t see it. Also, I do respect them as individuals too they have goals just like the rest of us. I am merely stating that the journey towards becoming healthy is not all glamours as we’re known to think.

It is important to look past the bad weeks, and push forward. Reset ourselves, and remember to re-focus on our goals to succeed.

Have a great week!

~Mags

 

 

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Starting Over

It’s feel weird to say that.”Starting over”

Honestly, I never thought I would be in this position again after dropping all the weight. I knew I would have to maintain it and I managed to do well for a few years before I decided to go back to school.

My life for 2 long years was completely altered.

Before College:

I would get off work, get a light breakfast, go to the gym for an hour (or Jazzercise), come home eat a good meal, bathe and relax then sleep for work. And repeat almost every day.

College:

I would get off work, shove down a quick breakfast, change then drive 45 minutes to be at class by 9 until noon, drive 45 minutes home, come home then eat lunch (or sometimes drive through) then drive to unwind to sleep for work and repeat daily for the first two months then every other day for the next two years.

Even after going to part time, I felt I didn’t have time to workout, because I was exhausted from losing the extra sleep I was normally getting so I would go to bed early on non school days in hopes to catch up. But I was so stressed the overeating began, I stopped working out completely. The weight came back slowly and I felt really inferior to my classmates. Working a full time job overnights, then going to school part time in itself is a struggle just like it is for anyone else who has their own life.

I really tried to “start over” in 2018 that didn’t pan out as well I hoped. I made an honest effort but it fell through.

But I have not given up.

Yesterday I went to the gym for the first time in a month:

 

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It’s a bit blurry but….

I eased myself back doing about 15 minutes or so on the treadmill. Then I did a light lifting session including some dead-lifts, hip thrusts and ended with burpees. I probably spent about 35 minutes total (just a guess) there but at least I did it.

When I got home, I wiped clean my marker board (that kept track of my weight loss) and planning to “start over” with a new weigh in on Sunday. I haven’t really set any goals right now I just want to start (it is my word for 2018 after all) and go from there.

Weight loss isn’t easy but I will succeed! I will be posting my stats on Sunday/Monday!

Have a great weekend!

Mags

 

Check in time!

I know it’s been awhile since I have checked in. TBH I haven’t done anything fitness related in a long ass time probably since the time I last checked in. I haven’t been to the gym at all this month, drinking pop, not weighing in, and not really doing a solid meal prep either.  I mean I did a quick prep last week of an easy recipe (a chicken pasta salad which I will share the recipe here at some point) but I haven’t really been eating too well so I need to get back on track.

I did have the Miss World of Wheels pageant Saturday and my sleep was really thrown off so by Sunday afternoon I slept hard. Also I have been dealing with itchy hives not sure if it’s an allergy may have to go see the doctor which I hate especially it’s still flu season and plus having to stepping on the scale there.

Monday morning I did an actual meal prep for the week:

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Chicken fillets with cauliflower (which was steaming) 

My calves hurt SO BAD from my heels Saturday so I know I am due for a good leg day workout. Overall, I still don’t feel like myself the weather has still sucked even though tomorrow the first day of spring (and it’s supposed to snow) and I have been just so tired as well which hasn’t helped.

I re established my goals and I am going to make an honest attempt at going to the gym this week. I am not putting how many days I should/need to go just to go and do something. Start out slow and work my way back to where I used to be, The weather will be warmer and I can start walking too.

I will recap my week on Sunday and I will weigh in regardless of what it is and we’ll get back on track!

Have a great week!

~Mags

What to do when you gained

So you stepped on the scale. You don’t like what you see, you step off remove any article of clothing you may have on, you step on the scale again, you still like what you see. Stepping off again you remove your underwear and any jewelry, maybe even your hair tie in hopes that will somehow change the number on the scale. You step on again completely buck naked and that number does not change.

Sound familiar?

If anyone has seen This Is Us in that first episode we see Kate (played by the fabulous Chrissy Metz)  as she does the dreaded weigh in and she does the exact same things (minus the hair tie) I mentioned above and you can’t help but feel her pain then totally cringe when she falls off the scale and you don’t know whether you should laugh or cry. Because the struggle is indeed real. (I did neither but I did gasp because I am a klutz but I have yet to fall off the scale).

Let me set the scene for you:

I woke up at 1am Sunday thinking about the weighing in, thinking how hungry I am so I get up, pee, then I step on the scale: 215.00 well, that can’t be right. I step off and step on again (fully dressed well in my pajamas) 215.5 seriously? I go back to bed thinking maybe a few more hours of sleep thinking that I can magically lose those extra pounds fasting.

5am wake up pee yet again and step on the scale: 215.5 pounds. There you have it. The scale does not lie. At this rate I go make myself breakfast and do the math. I gained 1.5 pounds. Which is not bad. However in my mind’s eye I am thinking how it’s 1.5 steps backwards in my direction not forward. Then I think I shouldn’t have all the carbs for breakfast on Saturday, or the two cookies at the Swap and Sell I went to.

Needless to say that has nothing to do with it. Weight gain is common in weight loss. Just as plateauing.  I know this. However, it doesn’t soften the blow any.

This is has inspired me to write this post. So here’s some advice for you if this is your first time or this is my 2nd go round how to handle the weight gain.

*Stay on task.

Just because you gain, doesn’t mean you should dive head first into the treats. Or chug down a soda. You will really reverse your progress and you feel crappy after.

*Try not obsess over it.

Okay so yeah I obsessed as you can see but it really doesn’t help any. And don’t think of fasting for another day, or going to the gym to try and lose that pesky pound then weighing in the same day or the next.

*Keep yourself busy

Or anything to take your mind off things. Which I did, I made breakfast then I meal prepped for the week.

*It could be muscle gain

A no brainier here and that could well be the possibility I gained since I started lifting again. Even though I have not been fully been lifting solidly for a month yet.

*It’s no the end of the world

Really.

*You’re allowed to be upset

But don’t drag it out.

*Take a deep breath and let it go

Enough said

*You’ll have a better weigh in next time

Truth.

 

I hope these tips help you out. If forgot anything please let me know!

Until next time,

~Mags

 

 

Weigh In update!

Happy Friday!

Starting Weight 217.00

Current weight 212.5

Total lost 4.5

Needless to say I am happy that I have lost another two pounds this week despite as I mentioned on Monday the week has been rough as I had another funeral to attend, we had another really cold nasty day (no school again) and I didn’t make it to the gym at all. Plus I was having still having major effects from Seasonal Affect Disorder so I just listened to my body and stayed home to recuperate.  Which is sometimes more than taking a hot bath, drinking tea and wearing a face mask (although those are on my list) it’s just to better yourself and take care your needs. I am big advocate of self care.

I plan to stay on this weigh in when I don’t work routine because weighing in first thing when I wake up in the morning makes a difference in my opinion so I won’t be weighing in again until next Sunday which will be January 28th even though I am off Sunday night/into Monday morning since I just weighed in Friday, I don’t think there is a point to do another weigh in two days after my weekly weigh in, so I will weigh in next Sunday January 28. Since I am off Friday and Saturday night.

Although I did set up my “home gym” finally this morning and I did about a 30 minute workout routine with my equipment. I worked up a sweat! I decided that on my “don’t break the chain” tally sheet that I would count home works along with going to the gym.

No pop at all since Sunday again and I have been getting the headaches (which is to be expected) but I haven’t been tempted at all which is really good. That’s usually is my downfall once I get over the hump, then it will  get better.

Nutrition wise this, I have been doing okay despite going to a funeral (carbs and sweets) I had one cheat meal so far. I decided not to track which is what I was doing in the past, since my schedule is different then the average person since I work overnights, and I don’t want to obsessed with counting calories. But again that’s my opinion if tracking works for you then more power to you.

One big thing I did Friday morning was clean out my freezer, and my upper cupboard. I HAD a lot of expired products!

Goals for the upcoming week:

*Go to the gym (or a home workout) Four days this week (though we’re supposed to get another snow storm Sunday so I am hoping to get there Monday)

*Meal prep for the week

*Try a new recipe

*Clean out the rest of my cupboards

*Make smoothies for a different breakfast option

I think that’s it for me! I rambled a bit too much I know but I will see you in a week with my results!

~Mags

 

 

2017 Recap

Hello! It’s been a while. But now I can finally write this….

I AM A COLLEGE GRADUATE!

I officially graduated (got my diploma) December 20, 2017. A 100 pound burden has been lifted off my shoulders. Let me tell you the last 8 weeks prior to that were rough.  I lost a lot of sleep, was stressed to the max and it a toll on my body. Although I wasn’t sick sick (you know cold or flu *knocks wood*) but I had a lot anxiety which caused my stomach to hurt or gave me diarrhea (TMI)  plus endless headaches. I often felt light headed too which scared me so I tried to sit as much as I could since I have a history of fainting. Luckily I managed to get through all my very hard trails and came out the other side.

My instructor tried to get to balance my life out with a schedule on an excel spread sheet which I am not a fan of digital media for something like that. She was trying to get me to plan my life down to a T which really bothered me.  I like to plan but I felt I was over planning you know?

I haven’t been to the gym only to work on my internship but not on my own. I tried to during that time but I just couldn’t force myself to do it. I chose sleep more often than going because I needed it more. I am all about self care. My instructor again wanted to know details of EVERYTHING about me going to the gym which again bothered me. I know there are some obstacles to overcome but I feel my progress is for me and me only.

So I am ending 2017 probably at my heaviest that I have been since I originally lost all my weight I haven’t weighed in since October but I am okay with that.

2018 is going to be my year (more on that later) I am excited! I will be back to blogging a bit more soon too. Doing my weekly check ins and weigh ins.

Stay tuned and have a Happy New Year!

~Mags

Big News!!

Hello all!

I haven’t felt like updating because really there hasn’t been anything exciting to share until as of yesterday.  Let me back track first:

As some of you know, I am studying to be a personal trainer which has not been an easy feat for me let me tell you a 34 year old that is a 2nd time college student, while juggling a full time job overnights I might add. I have experienced so many hiccups, that I have almost wanted to throw in the towel several times. The last few semesters have been straight up rough too especially  with the last summer semester.

Anyways one of the set backs was my completion date originally it was slotted for December 2017, then it was pushed back to next April 2018, well I found out yesterday that I will be indeed done by December 2017 as per my original plans.  My school sadly will be closing it’s doors at the end of 2017. Which means the personal training program will be no longer be around either (the school itself Herzing University will be just non existent in Omaha). My plan was to get my associates degree in Exercise Science but now it has been reduced down to a diploma. Which I am 100% okay with but that means all students who are supposed to finish in December graduate NEXT Friday (September 15th)!! So yes yours truly will walk at graduation!

At first when my graduation date had changed I was told I would not be allowed to walk at all (with the school closing and all) so I filed it in the back of my mind and just continued to move forward. But it did bother me that I wouldn’t get the chance to walk across the stage, wear the ridiculous cap and gown, and get my diploma. Corny I know but even this is my 3rd graduation and my 2nd as a college student to me it’s a big deal!!! Some people don’t think so and not even show up to the ceremony but hello you paid for that!! So to be able to walk next week is a huge deal for me in fact, I wasn’t planning on even going at all but this changes everything!!

Just goes to show you that you must never ever give up!!

Have a great weekend!

~Mags