Monthly Update

May is almost over and I know there is 4 days left of the month but I decided to still share an update. The rockiness of life I think is starting to fade so I am slowly trying to get back into a routine of some kind.

I’ve only gotten in four workouts in this month (I plan to walk this morning) but I am hoping to finish the month out with two more workouts/walks.

I’ve had pop 4 times this month which was the same as April which isn’t terrible

I weighed in early because I had read an article about Wednesday is the best day to weigh in so I think I will hold off weighing in until June 1st (a Wednesday) I had lost four pounds at that time and my goal for May was 5 so I will see if I made it.

I started bullet journaling in my regular journal where I draw out a calendar for the month, then I keep track of my workouts, not drinking pop, etc. Then I write out my goals for the month. I’ve been doing it for 2 months now and I will share a post on how I do it.

School is going ok, I am trying to find a place to go for my internship which starts at the end of June. It’s been a process. The place I really wanted to go which would be right in my neighborhood turned me down which bummed me out.

I am planning on doing the Color Run in July which will be my first and only run this year. I am okay with that and my goal for next year will be to do Trek up the Tower and 5K the Hard Way.

Last but not least I signed up to do a Pin Up photo shoot at the end of August which will help motivate me back into working out 🙂

I will be back with my June goals!!

Have a great weekend!

Mags

Fork in the road

Wow.  I don’t even know where to begin. I really thought 2017 was going to be my year.  I was going to STRIVE for success. So far it has not we’re already four months in and I want a divorce from 2017.

I have tried to be optimistic

I have tried to be positive

I tried to STRIVE forward

BUT……

I’ve felt nothing but stagnant. School hasn’t gotten any easier since I started back in January. In fact it has not gotten any better. Last week I was slammed with news not once but twice. My instructor even came down on me pretty hard the week before that I cried the whole 45 minute drive on the way home.

My job has been stressful since the start of the New Year too, I’ve had to put in numerous days of OT when I’m not at school which has added to the stress load.

The gym has taken a backseat I haven’t been since maybe January? Meal planning has been a hit and a miss. I’ve cheated way more than I should have and I have put on 30 pounds. Clothes aren’t fitting again. I am not proud of that.

I think part of the problem is I don’t have any real goals set. I decided not to do Trek up the Tower this year because prior to that when I had planned to train, I had an rather painful injury where I had pulled my quad muscles severely so I took two weeks off in order to recover. I thought about 5K the Hardway again but I don’t know my schedule past May, so I can’t even schedule the Color Run either it’s been frustrating so I have been saying no to any commitments like them.

What’s a girl to do?

To be honest, I am not sure what the answer is. Usually I am so sure of myself but my confidence has taken a backseat as well.

Here’s the BUT again…..

Sunday morning, I cleaned out my cupboards and my fridge. I went grocery shopping Monday after work. I stuck to my list and only bought said items on there which I rarely do. I did add a few things that I had forgotten but I didn’t buy any sweets. I made myself a smoothie for breakfast then I drove out to Johnson Lake and walked around 1 time. I also did some upright push ups on the benches along the way (I need to figure out how many benches they are total so I could do the math on how many reps I do on each one) The wind was pretty strong (love Nebraska) is why I only made it around 1 time plus I can tell I am out of shape! I came home and cooked lunch:

Food.jpg

I got some pork chops but I cut it in half and bought some broccoli and cheese tater tots ( I had a coupon) they tasted really good! I did some meal prepping too this week. I have been back to drinking tons of water.

It’s a start. My birthday is this week. I may have a cheat day and I am going to try to make it to the gym this week as well since the weather looks ify the rest of the week so I may not be able to get out and walk.

I have my final today then I start back up with classes next week!

I’ll try to update when I can.

Mags

 

 

 

 

 

Monthly update

I wish I was writing a happier post but alas that’s not reality. I decided not to weigh in this month because it has been a horrible month.

Work has been very stressful we’re down to three original staff members the rest have retired or quit. I had to put in overtime last week so no gym at all. Which I didn’t go at all this entire month I am ashamed to admit I didn’t even make it to the Cross fit class like I mentioned. My eating has been poor I’ve stressed eaten way too much and drank pop pretty regularly.

Plus school on top of it which the last two weeks I’ve had a big assignment due that needed my attention more. Today is my last day of the 1st semester next semester (which starts next Monday) is nutrition!!! I am little anxious to start that because I know mine isn’t as great. *sighs*

But it can only get better from here! I am going to take charge again better my eating I even got some unflavored protein powder so I am going to try my first shake with some of it, I also got kale! (I found a great recipe for dressing that I will share after I try it). Plus back to no pop. It’s my downfall but I need to do better with it.

As for getting back into a workout routine, I just need to do it. Tomorrow I plan go back to the Y. I think I will start maybe with some walking at the track then maybe swim, I want to ease myself back into it. I am hoping by the end of the week I can go back to Jazzercise too. That is my goals for the week.

I will check back with you in a week!!

~Mags

 

 

 

Checking In

I will be doing monthly check ins as opposed to weekly since I opted to only weigh in once a month instead of weekly because I don’t want to rely on the scale as much as I have before. But I still I wanted to do a quick check in to let you know how things are going.

This week we had an ice storm for three days (Sun, Mon & Tues). Monday was a holiday for me anyways but the gym was closed and Tuesday there was no school but the gym was open but I fell on the ice and opted to stay home to rest since I was feeling sore. Which meant no gym for three days (since I did have class on Wednesday) and I should have done an at home workout with my new resistance bands but I gave into my old habits.

However, I don’t feel at my best when I don’t get enough sleep especially trying to readjust back into my school schedule. So I tend to listen to my tired body a bit more than I am used and that’s okay. I am trying to find balance for both. I’ve only worked out 1-2 days a week and I need to go for 3. I learned last week that if I write in my schedule I wind up not going as opposed to recording it later if that makes any sense. I feel like if I plan it I set myself up for failure. But if I go when I don’t plan it I am more consistent. Trail and error friends!

Eating has been so/so I had more cheat meals a week ago than I liked. At the most I allow myself two a week but I had four. Although my meal prep for work is getting better. I found some new recipes too that I am eager to try. I am less tempted to stop for drive thru on the way home from school which I am proud of myself for!

Last but not least school. I’ve only had 3 classes so far it’s been an adjustment because I am with massage students again (there are four trainers in the class) so it’s a larger class, plus it really doesn’t apply to me being as a personal trainer. Some of it does and some of it doesn’t which is really hard to focus. I am trying though! I have 6 weeks left.

Have a great weekend!

~Mags

 

 

 

1 year

Today is my final day of school for the semester also this happens to be the date that I am graduating next year so I am 1 year away from that!

This semester as you know, has been very emotional and stressful for me. It has taken a toll everywhere including my weight. I have gained 25 pounds overall. Which is pretty disappointing to say the least. My weight loss anniversary was on December 2nd but I didn’t feel very victorious as I have in the past because I felt like I had failed not only myself and the people who I have inspired. Plus I had taken a leave of absence from the gym and Jazzercise because I felt so defeated in the whole process.

A lot has happened in the past year, and I have fell short of  a lot my goals. For 2017, I am not making very many goals my main focus is school but I think I will attempt  Trek up the Tower in February and maybe 5K the Hard Way in June (which was my first 5K).

As for my diet I am looking into Intuitive eating.  I think it just might be the solution I need. I hope with the holiday break I can ease back into a gym routine.

I will be back after the New Year to check in!

Have a Happy Holidays and awesome 2017!!

~Mags

 

Real Talk

I wasn’t sure how to title this post or exactly how to write it. But it’s been on my mind so I wanted to share with y’all about this.  This is real talk here I am laying it out all on the line.

As you know, I am studying to become a personal trainer. It just basically happened on accident. I was applying to another school to be something totally different when I was struggling to pass the “required” exam and I lost steam on the idea. A lot of people suggested it because of my success in weight loss and motivating others. Next thing you know a year later I am starting my 2nd year of the program with completing by next December of 2017. Also, it hasn’t been anything but easy more like a roller coaster of stress, and emotions. I’ve been so close to walking away from the program completely but then where would I be?

This fall semester has been quite a roller coaster too. In September, I learned how to design and program workouts. I applied those workouts to the newer training students who were my position one year ago. It was quite an emotional time for me because I don’t take criticism well (who doesn’t) and most days I left the gym in tears.

I have a love/hate relationship with my current instructor. This is the same instructor I had for a year now. He taught me both times in kinesiology, also in my testing and prescription class and these last two classes I’ve had in the fall. Last Tuesday, he, myself and, my two classmates (who I’ve known since March and they will be done soon since they are just getting certified) had a sit down. My instructor wanted us to talk positives/negatives about one another. This is a hard topic for me because:

  1. I hate to tell anyone their faults because I want people to like me (total Taurus thing)
  2. I don’t take criticism well especially negative ones

My instructor told me out of all his years of teaching the program, he’s never met anyone who is so uncomfortable in the program than me. Needless to say I was shocked. One of the things my instructor had said in the last class: That I am uncomfortable in the gym. It was a total slap in the face. It really hurt too. I’ve mentioned it causally on this blog.

I never thought I was uncomfortable in the gym. I had Jazzercised more than going to the gym (YMCA) but apparently it’s relevant. Maybe it’s because the gym I go to for school is different than the Y maybe that’s why I am uncomfortable? Worse part was hearing that I am not educated in workouts. I felt like saying “duh” on that one. Why do you think I am going to school? I’ve learned by watching and pinterest. I really wished my school had a class on exercise. But it’s disheartening to hear constantly: “You’re uncomfortable, You don’t know exercises” How is that helping me? If anything it makes me question my abilities and I feel defeated. I also with certain exercises that I used to do but when put on the spot I get flustered and embarrassed.  I think that’s part of the reason why I have been avoiding the gym/Jazzercise. I’ve lost my confidence.

Here’s the thing. My instructor needs to do both the positive and the negative. You can’t have one without the other. In my opinion, tell me what I did wrong but soften the blow by telling me what I did good. He even said it’s a sandwich Positive with a Negative followed by a Positive.  He fails to do that.  I understand I need to grow and be comfortable as a trainer but I need positive reinforcement too. Otherwise I am going to fall back into the shadows.

Now I have a whole new understanding of why a lot of people avoid the gym altogether. I was one of those as well, and have fallen back into that fear. I need to overcome it again and start over to find what I have lost so I can be the best damn trainer I can be.

One step at a time One day at a time.

~Mags

 

 

I’m back!

Gosh! I know it’s been a while and for that I am sorry. The last few months have been busy. I’ve started school back up in March and it’s been a roller coaster.

So what have I been up to?

I did the Diva Dash:

 

me.png

And the Color Run for the 2nd year in a row:

happy

 

I’d like to say that my gym routine has been awesome and on point but I’d be lying. I’ve been having a hard time finding my groove of going to the gym or Jazzercise. I have been forcing myself to go then not enjoying it as I used to. Or there are days where I don’t flat out go. I’m on my 3rd week of school this week (after having two weeks off) and I still don’t feel adjusted back into my regular routine yet.

Not to mention, I smashed my toe Sunday so that put me out for a few days.

Plus my weight has been a roller coaster too of gaining, then loosing a little then gaining a lot. I am back down to 179 (thanks to sweating my ass off in my car with no ac for an hour last week helped with that I’m sure). I am slowly trying to get back on track as it were if I just get my gym groove going again.

Any advice out there?

Have a great day!