Checking In

Hello all,

There hasn’t been much to talk about lately. I did get a new car two weeks ago so that’s been good. I did weigh in tonight for curiosity sake which I haven’t since March 25th (2 months) which it has stayed the same with just 5 ounces so my current weight:

216.5

I really need to get back into things. It has been a constant struggle for me for a lot of reasons. Mainly I have been trying to focus on my mental health and sleep because I have not been sleeping super well at all.  As much as I love summer my apartment gets majorly hot (I have only window a.cs.) and the window a.c. is LOUD in my room so I have to figure out a way to silence it without turning it down and dying of heat stroke. I did put cardboard around them but they might need something else. We’ll see. I do use ear plugs which has helped.

Anyways I bought a skirt for an upcoming “dapper day” at my local zoo in two weeks and when I tried it on (it was 3x) I got stuck in it which was totally embarrassing and I couldn’t get it unzipped. I knew it was a sign that I really (truly) need to get my act together.

I know I’ve said it before but I truly want to set a goal and accomplish it. I want to lose at least 5 pounds in 2 weeks. That means no more pop, starting walking/exercising (I hope to get back into Jazzercise this week) and really watching what I eat. I think my downfall has been is not exercising, drinking more pop, and doing more cheat meals then I’m allowed. I have to be a bit stricter on myself this time around.

I have until June 9th so wish me luck!

~Mags

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Real Talk: It’s not glamours

This is sort of an update but also I am being 100% real on here.

I can’t give a full report of Keto yet. The first week went really good and I only craved carbs a tad bit. By the 2nd week, I gave up and fell head first into carbs. What I think I need is a bit more structure with it.  As in I need to do better food prep for the weeks, including breakfasts. I downloaded a great recipe to try.

I decided to do a “looser” based keto diet. I am not giving up milk/cereals (I love my oats damnit) and peanut butter. However, I didn’t buy bread when I did my last grocery run and I don’t intend to when I go after work today.  Not making pasta/rice either.

Anyways, when I started this blog. I wasn’t sure how much I wanted to talk about my own personal struggles. I tend to be a private person with certain things because everything is so “out there” now days.

Honestly I wished I had written about my first weight loss journey all those years ago because I know it was not easy at all. This time it’s no exception. That’s the reality of life/any fitness related or not. I’m not going to pretend it’s all sunshine and rainbows because it’s not. I would be blowing smoke up my own ass.

I mentioned countless times how rough my weeks have been this year not for sympathy but to tell you you not everyone has the fantastic week of exercising every day (maybe even twice a day), staying on task with your diet, meal prep and drinking the gallons of water you see in all their photos. That I took 50 selfies of my booty pop, flexing in the mirror, showing off my washboard abs. It’s why I stopped following a chunk of “Fit” people on Instagram (more on that later). I bet you more times than not they have really shitty days but we don’t see it. Also, I do respect them as individuals too they have goals just like the rest of us. I am merely stating that the journey towards becoming healthy is not all glamours as we’re known to think.

It is important to look past the bad weeks, and push forward. Reset ourselves, and remember to re-focus on our goals to succeed.

Have a great week!

~Mags

 

 

Something different

Hello!

This isn’t much of an update because I didn’t weigh like I had said. I had another lousy week. I did see the dermatologist on Tuesday was given a prescription but it was never called into the pharmacy! Talk about frustrating!! So needless to say I am still itchy and miserable and I see them again in a week.

The mercury retrograde/weather have really taken it’s toll on me last week along with other emotional crap (yay me) so I spent more time focusing on self care.

I have decided to try a bit of Keto into my diet which I had thought about doing in the past but didn’t stick to it in the past. A summary of Keto is basically reverting back to caveman habits. Lots of meat come into play along with certain veggies/fruit. You do have to cut out a lot of stuff including carbs, peanut butter (eeek) milk, and starchy foods. I am not sure how well I am going to do on this but I am going to give it the old college try as they say.  I don’t think I can give up milk peruse but I am willing to give up pasta and bread for a while.

I am giving myself two weeks which is when I will go grocery shopping again to give it an honest effort as much as I can. Plus I am hoping to make it back to the gym this week! I promise! There won’t be any updates until then unless something Earth shattering happens!

I’ll see you in two weeks!

~Mags

What to do when you gained

So you stepped on the scale. You don’t like what you see, you step off remove any article of clothing you may have on, you step on the scale again, you still like what you see. Stepping off again you remove your underwear and any jewelry, maybe even your hair tie in hopes that will somehow change the number on the scale. You step on again completely buck naked and that number does not change.

Sound familiar?

If anyone has seen This Is Us in that first episode we see Kate (played by the fabulous Chrissy Metz)  as she does the dreaded weigh in and she does the exact same things (minus the hair tie) I mentioned above and you can’t help but feel her pain then totally cringe when she falls off the scale and you don’t know whether you should laugh or cry. Because the struggle is indeed real. (I did neither but I did gasp because I am a klutz but I have yet to fall off the scale).

Let me set the scene for you:

I woke up at 1am Sunday thinking about the weighing in, thinking how hungry I am so I get up, pee, then I step on the scale: 215.00 well, that can’t be right. I step off and step on again (fully dressed well in my pajamas) 215.5 seriously? I go back to bed thinking maybe a few more hours of sleep thinking that I can magically lose those extra pounds fasting.

5am wake up pee yet again and step on the scale: 215.5 pounds. There you have it. The scale does not lie. At this rate I go make myself breakfast and do the math. I gained 1.5 pounds. Which is not bad. However in my mind’s eye I am thinking how it’s 1.5 steps backwards in my direction not forward. Then I think I shouldn’t have all the carbs for breakfast on Saturday, or the two cookies at the Swap and Sell I went to.

Needless to say that has nothing to do with it. Weight gain is common in weight loss. Just as plateauing.  I know this. However, it doesn’t soften the blow any.

This is has inspired me to write this post. So here’s some advice for you if this is your first time or this is my 2nd go round how to handle the weight gain.

*Stay on task.

Just because you gain, doesn’t mean you should dive head first into the treats. Or chug down a soda. You will really reverse your progress and you feel crappy after.

*Try not obsess over it.

Okay so yeah I obsessed as you can see but it really doesn’t help any. And don’t think of fasting for another day, or going to the gym to try and lose that pesky pound then weighing in the same day or the next.

*Keep yourself busy

Or anything to take your mind off things. Which I did, I made breakfast then I meal prepped for the week.

*It could be muscle gain

A no brainier here and that could well be the possibility I gained since I started lifting again. Even though I have not been fully been lifting solidly for a month yet.

*It’s no the end of the world

Really.

*You’re allowed to be upset

But don’t drag it out.

*Take a deep breath and let it go

Enough said

*You’ll have a better weigh in next time

Truth.

 

I hope these tips help you out. If forgot anything please let me know!

Until next time,

~Mags

 

 

Weigh In update!

Happy Friday!

Starting Weight 217.00

Current weight 212.5

Total lost 4.5

Needless to say I am happy that I have lost another two pounds this week despite as I mentioned on Monday the week has been rough as I had another funeral to attend, we had another really cold nasty day (no school again) and I didn’t make it to the gym at all. Plus I was having still having major effects from Seasonal Affect Disorder so I just listened to my body and stayed home to recuperate.  Which is sometimes more than taking a hot bath, drinking tea and wearing a face mask (although those are on my list) it’s just to better yourself and take care your needs. I am big advocate of self care.

I plan to stay on this weigh in when I don’t work routine because weighing in first thing when I wake up in the morning makes a difference in my opinion so I won’t be weighing in again until next Sunday which will be January 28th even though I am off Sunday night/into Monday morning since I just weighed in Friday, I don’t think there is a point to do another weigh in two days after my weekly weigh in, so I will weigh in next Sunday January 28. Since I am off Friday and Saturday night.

Although I did set up my “home gym” finally this morning and I did about a 30 minute workout routine with my equipment. I worked up a sweat! I decided that on my “don’t break the chain” tally sheet that I would count home works along with going to the gym.

No pop at all since Sunday again and I have been getting the headaches (which is to be expected) but I haven’t been tempted at all which is really good. That’s usually is my downfall once I get over the hump, then it will  get better.

Nutrition wise this, I have been doing okay despite going to a funeral (carbs and sweets) I had one cheat meal so far. I decided not to track which is what I was doing in the past, since my schedule is different then the average person since I work overnights, and I don’t want to obsessed with counting calories. But again that’s my opinion if tracking works for you then more power to you.

One big thing I did Friday morning was clean out my freezer, and my upper cupboard. I HAD a lot of expired products!

Goals for the upcoming week:

*Go to the gym (or a home workout) Four days this week (though we’re supposed to get another snow storm Sunday so I am hoping to get there Monday)

*Meal prep for the week

*Try a new recipe

*Clean out the rest of my cupboards

*Make smoothies for a different breakfast option

I think that’s it for me! I rambled a bit too much I know but I will see you in a week with my results!

~Mags

 

 

Real Talk

I wasn’t sure how to title this post or exactly how to write it. But it’s been on my mind so I wanted to share with y’all about this.  This is real talk here I am laying it out all on the line.

As you know, I am studying to become a personal trainer. It just basically happened on accident. I was applying to another school to be something totally different when I was struggling to pass the “required” exam and I lost steam on the idea. A lot of people suggested it because of my success in weight loss and motivating others. Next thing you know a year later I am starting my 2nd year of the program with completing by next December of 2017. Also, it hasn’t been anything but easy more like a roller coaster of stress, and emotions. I’ve been so close to walking away from the program completely but then where would I be?

This fall semester has been quite a roller coaster too. In September, I learned how to design and program workouts. I applied those workouts to the newer training students who were my position one year ago. It was quite an emotional time for me because I don’t take criticism well (who doesn’t) and most days I left the gym in tears.

I have a love/hate relationship with my current instructor. This is the same instructor I had for a year now. He taught me both times in kinesiology, also in my testing and prescription class and these last two classes I’ve had in the fall. Last Tuesday, he, myself and, my two classmates (who I’ve known since March and they will be done soon since they are just getting certified) had a sit down. My instructor wanted us to talk positives/negatives about one another. This is a hard topic for me because:

  1. I hate to tell anyone their faults because I want people to like me (total Taurus thing)
  2. I don’t take criticism well especially negative ones

My instructor told me out of all his years of teaching the program, he’s never met anyone who is so uncomfortable in the program than me. Needless to say I was shocked. One of the things my instructor had said in the last class: That I am uncomfortable in the gym. It was a total slap in the face. It really hurt too. I’ve mentioned it causally on this blog.

I never thought I was uncomfortable in the gym. I had Jazzercised more than going to the gym (YMCA) but apparently it’s relevant. Maybe it’s because the gym I go to for school is different than the Y maybe that’s why I am uncomfortable? Worse part was hearing that I am not educated in workouts. I felt like saying “duh” on that one. Why do you think I am going to school? I’ve learned by watching and pinterest. I really wished my school had a class on exercise. But it’s disheartening to hear constantly: “You’re uncomfortable, You don’t know exercises” How is that helping me? If anything it makes me question my abilities and I feel defeated. I also with certain exercises that I used to do but when put on the spot I get flustered and embarrassed.  I think that’s part of the reason why I have been avoiding the gym/Jazzercise. I’ve lost my confidence.

Here’s the thing. My instructor needs to do both the positive and the negative. You can’t have one without the other. In my opinion, tell me what I did wrong but soften the blow by telling me what I did good. He even said it’s a sandwich Positive with a Negative followed by a Positive.  He fails to do that.  I understand I need to grow and be comfortable as a trainer but I need positive reinforcement too. Otherwise I am going to fall back into the shadows.

Now I have a whole new understanding of why a lot of people avoid the gym altogether. I was one of those as well, and have fallen back into that fear. I need to overcome it again and start over to find what I have lost so I can be the best damn trainer I can be.

One step at a time One day at a time.

~Mags

 

 

Wishy Washy Dieters

 Disclaimer: This post is my opinion. I know everyone has different lifestyles and choices.

We’ve all heard the term before yo-yo dieters or I’d like to call it wishy washy. People who try a bunch of different diets they lose weight for a while, then they fall off the wagon and gain weight, they try another diet, lose weight again then fall the wagon yet again and gain even more weight. I know because I’ve been there.

Why I am writing about this a friend I follow on social media IS a yo-yo dieter. I didn’t realize it until recently. This person has tried EVERYTHING that I can think of. They’ve done well but then they slip and they try yet another diet it is a vicious cycle. I feel bad for them because they have made excellent progress they just struggle when it comes to the diet part (mostly). I for one get it because I have not been on point at all either but I’ve seen this many other fellow weight loss people I follow they do super great for a while then suddenly they fall off the face of the planet (ahem like me and this blog) and you don’t hear from them for a long until they resurface trying something yet again that may sound great to them but they set themselves up for failure.

My story: If you remember, I joined Curves (is that even still around?) in early 2005-ish? And I was a solid member for almost two-years before I ended up quitting for personal reasons. But I did their weight loss class not once but twice because I really thought it could help me. The cost was about $70 it included the course for 30 minutes (I think) where we watched a video, then had a small discussion and weekly weigh ins, their “products” including a protein shake and their vitamins and a book on how to do their diet. They were three phases: The first being a don’t eat a whole lot phase, to a little more phase to a plateau phase where you increase your calories or whatever then when you felt you repeated phase one again. Strange I know but I did benefit from it. But it was hard because I was still living at home, so I really didn’t have control in the food that was purchased I had some say but I couldn’t strictly put my whole family on a diet.  However, I made it work. This was the only “diet” I really tried before I gave up and gained 217 pounds.

I never tried anything like Atkins, Weight Watchers, South Beach diet to name a few I did attempt Keto not long ago and also I tried to menu plan (which was failure) but mostly I would try to just cut back (like I did before) and try to exercise then I would lose weight but after some time I just fell back into my old habits. We all do. It happens its life. Find something that you’re able to do and stick to it. For me it was what I mentioned including drinking more water, cutting back on pop as well.

Back to my friend. A few days ago they admitted that they hadn’t been on point in their diet or their workout, they had been on a program for a while (a new one) and were going back to another original program before they tried this one, they admitted that: “eating clean was expensive, it’s the holidays, and they were going to eat processed foods”.

I am going to break this down for you from my view using some true and false with a bit explanations on my point of view on this.

  1. Eating clean is expensive. False. Yes and No. This all depends on you (plus your budget) and what YOU consider expensive. You don’t have to all clean but you can do simple modifications to eat healthier. I will be doing a post on that how to do it.
  2. It’s the holidays. True but that does that mean you give into temptations? No. I wrote last year how you can still enjoy the holidays without over doing it. “Everything in moderation” You can still have your cake or cookie and eat it to. Just don’t go overboard.
  3. Processed Foods. Tough subject. Depending who you ask too. I am guilty of eating processed foods as the next person. But I don’t guilt myself over it. Nobody is perfect. I think as I mentioned anyone can make simple changes to their diet.  Also you don’t have to eat out as often (I chose weekends) or make healthier options when if and when you go out.

But the good news is my friend plan to continue their workouts and will add healthier options to their meals. I think they will be ok in the long run they have come this far they just have to keep going. They struggle with nutrition (as do I) and getting things to work. I know how that is! I’ve been there done that. Just finding something that works and sticking to it is the hardest thing we have to do. But we must not give up!

Here’s to not giving up!

Mags