Check in

Starting Weight: 217.00

Current Weight: 213.00

-4 Pounds
It has been a hot minute since I’ve done a check in.  Last week was a straight up bitch, I had the start of cold then it turned into the flu so I was off work 2 nights and I hadn’t any solid food since last Wednesday.  Flu is not a fun way to lose weight but I’ll take it.

After avoiding the flu since the season started (November?) I went to Planet CC the weekend before, I was yet again exposed to sick people and this time it decided to kick my ass in every way possible. The only thing I managed to eat was jello and vanilla pudding (which I am straight up chocolate girl so you know I was sick but Vanilla snack packs are amaze-balls) plus endless amounts of 7-Up, Alka Seltzer and water. It’s hard AF to hydrate when you’re sick and nothing will stay down. TMI I know but finally Saturday I needed some protein and ate a cheeseburger (not from where I wanted one but you know) then Sunday I made a quick trip to the store for eggs, chicken, etc. I need to replenish my supply this week.

So I am feeling better for the most part despite the cough that won’t go away. I am hoping to do a reset this week and hopefully make it back to the gym this week. I am looking into getting a Simply Fit Board  as another workout option for when I can’t go to the gym, etc.  I have been watching The Nanny in the mornings and I thought maybe I could stand and use it during the hour I watch it.

I will let you know if I decide to invest in it and then a review will come later on.

That’s all I got for now gang! See you next week.



Weekly Check In


I am still going to weigh in on Sunday. But I wanted to share how my week has been. Yet again it has been another emotional week. We had two snow days this week. I did do an at home workout on Monday, but by the time I got home Tuesday, it was late in the morning my energy was really low. So I stayed in.

I did make it to the gym Wednesday and Thursday. I am debating about Friday because I may or may not to be going to Lincoln to visit my niece and nephew but they’ve been sick. So I am trying to avoid the plague as it were. I have yet to be sick.

Trek up the Tower is in three weeks and I haven’t done much “training” so I am worried that I am not going to do well.

Also my exam date is looming so I am trying to study and not wuss out.

As I was saying, going to the gym on Thursday was a tough day. I realize that I have to start back at square one again where I was 5 years ago, seeing all the fit people can be a bit intimidating when you are lifting with 2.5 pound weights. My focus has been Dumb Bell weights with both leg and upper body. I will have a post on that later on.

On top of other emotions that’s been going on too. I had to write a letter to myself when I got home, to help encourage me and plus to help whenever I have another bad day, I can refer back to this day and remember this is a process of my journey. Not to feat it.

I have only met 1 goal this week was to meal prep. I have still have Saturday (if I don’t go to Lincoln) to make it to the gym. Plus to clean my cupboards too. I left out my frozen fruit smoothie mix too long and it went to mush.

I want to make a trip to Trader Joe’s in Omaha. I have only been to the Lincoln location and that was a year ago. I recently saw a fellow You Tuber’s haul from Trader Joe’s and I want to get some items from there and they looked really good so I want to try. So if I do go I will share a haul on here. It maybe weird but hey they do it on You Tube…..

I am really excited for the weekend none the less. I need to recharge my batteries and get re-focused on my goals. I think January is a tough month for anyone.

Have a great weekend and see you Sunday!



Weigh In update!

Happy Friday!

Starting Weight 217.00

Current weight 212.5

Total lost 4.5

Needless to say I am happy that I have lost another two pounds this week despite as I mentioned on Monday the week has been rough as I had another funeral to attend, we had another really cold nasty day (no school again) and I didn’t make it to the gym at all. Plus I was having still having major effects from Seasonal Affect Disorder so I just listened to my body and stayed home to recuperate.  Which is sometimes more than taking a hot bath, drinking tea and wearing a face mask (although those are on my list) it’s just to better yourself and take care your needs. I am big advocate of self care.

I plan to stay on this weigh in when I don’t work routine because weighing in first thing when I wake up in the morning makes a difference in my opinion so I won’t be weighing in again until next Sunday which will be January 28th even though I am off Sunday night/into Monday morning since I just weighed in Friday, I don’t think there is a point to do another weigh in two days after my weekly weigh in, so I will weigh in next Sunday January 28. Since I am off Friday and Saturday night.

Although I did set up my “home gym” finally this morning and I did about a 30 minute workout routine with my equipment. I worked up a sweat! I decided that on my “don’t break the chain” tally sheet that I would count home works along with going to the gym.

No pop at all since Sunday again and I have been getting the headaches (which is to be expected) but I haven’t been tempted at all which is really good. That’s usually is my downfall once I get over the hump, then it will  get better.

Nutrition wise this, I have been doing okay despite going to a funeral (carbs and sweets) I had one cheat meal so far. I decided not to track which is what I was doing in the past, since my schedule is different then the average person since I work overnights, and I don’t want to obsessed with counting calories. But again that’s my opinion if tracking works for you then more power to you.

One big thing I did Friday morning was clean out my freezer, and my upper cupboard. I HAD a lot of expired products!

Goals for the upcoming week:

*Go to the gym (or a home workout) Four days this week (though we’re supposed to get another snow storm Sunday so I am hoping to get there Monday)

*Meal prep for the week

*Try a new recipe

*Clean out the rest of my cupboards

*Make smoothies for a different breakfast option

I think that’s it for me! I rambled a bit too much I know but I will see you in a week with my results!





Weekly Check In

Good Morning!

Last week was a rough one. I had two deaths that were significantly close to myself and my family, seasonal affect disorder reared it’s ugly head, and I had a staff meeting. Needless to say I gave into pop twice this week and I only made it to the gym twice as well.

Also I had my yearly girly exam and I hate the scales at the doctor because it said I weighed more than what I weighed in on last Monday so that bothered me a tad.

With that said, I am not weighing in until Friday. I am off Thursday night so I like to sleep then get up in weigh in as opposed to working all night Sunday (this week) and going home to step on the scale and be disappointed.

What I need to do is first off is make a space to workout at home if I don’t want to go out to the gym. I have the tools and knowledge to do it. Then set the time for 30 minutes and do it. Plus I cleaned my apartment (minus my other room)

Positives: Is that I stayed on task with my food prep last week and I have yet (*knocks wood*) to get sick this year. Which usually by now I have gotten something. I have been exposed numerous times already but for some reason my immune system has been awesome. Maybe it’s because I have really stayed on top of it by taking an ton a vitamin C, drinking more water (*ahem*) taking Benadryl (it helps me sleep), also drinking hot fluids like tea, and I have improved my hand washing game. Bonus I have been getting more sleep and back to my routine.

Also Trek Up The Tower is will be a month away this week so I have to step my game.

Goals this week:

*Go to the Y 4 times this week

*Set up my at home workout space

*No more pop for the month!

*Meal Prep

*Weigh In Friday

I will be back Friday to recap my weigh in!

Have a great week!



2017 Recap

Hello! It’s been a while. But now I can finally write this….


I officially graduated (got my diploma) December 20, 2017. A 100 pound burden has been lifted off my shoulders. Let me tell you the last 8 weeks prior to that were rough.  I lost a lot of sleep, was stressed to the max and it a toll on my body. Although I wasn’t sick sick (you know cold or flu *knocks wood*) but I had a lot anxiety which caused my stomach to hurt or gave me diarrhea (TMI)  plus endless headaches. I often felt light headed too which scared me so I tried to sit as much as I could since I have a history of fainting. Luckily I managed to get through all my very hard trails and came out the other side.

My instructor tried to get to balance my life out with a schedule on an excel spread sheet which I am not a fan of digital media for something like that. She was trying to get me to plan my life down to a T which really bothered me.  I like to plan but I felt I was over planning you know?

I haven’t been to the gym only to work on my internship but not on my own. I tried to during that time but I just couldn’t force myself to do it. I chose sleep more often than going because I needed it more. I am all about self care. My instructor again wanted to know details of EVERYTHING about me going to the gym which again bothered me. I know there are some obstacles to overcome but I feel my progress is for me and me only.

So I am ending 2017 probably at my heaviest that I have been since I originally lost all my weight I haven’t weighed in since October but I am okay with that.

2018 is going to be my year (more on that later) I am excited! I will be back to blogging a bit more soon too. Doing my weekly check ins and weigh ins.

Stay tuned and have a Happy New Year!



I can’t do a push-up

Real talk here peeps.

I am currently taking a “group exercise class” for my requirements for my personal training certificate. It requires me to go to various group exercise classes at the Y or the local gym in Omaha. I have to observe the class while participating, along with attending “lab” or actual class room time once a week for discussion, then after we take an hour to go to the gym and we take turns “training” a group exercise class consisting of ourselves, some outside people, and a few teachers from school.

We did this workout which was as many reps that we can do in an certain amount  of time all with a kettle bell:

We did sqauts

Upright rows

Push Ups

Squats into an overhead extension

Then run 1 lap around the track (I so don’t run I walk it)

And repeat.

Fun right? (Total ass kicker by the way and I plan to do it on my own)

But I can’t do push ups.

My form is all wrong etc, etc. It was embarrassing that I, a 34-year old personal training student can’t do a damn push-up. I never could do them, even on my knees apparently I don’t do them right. Worse that two older women in my group can actually do them on their knees and I can’t. I wound up using a bar that held mats to do them standing. Don’t get me started with planks I am lucky I do those right (sometimes).

This is not the first time I’ve been embarrassed by lack of knowledge and form. I am learning but it’s upsetting to me when I can’t do anything right. I snuck a peek at my instructors notebook after our workout and all over I saw (Maggie form) it felt like a kick in the stomach.

To be honest I have only worked out on my own under no guidance no trainer (I’m cheap ha) so I’ve learned as I go (which is how I roll) plus visually. That’s one of the disadvantages of an accelerated program like mine not everything is going to be included in our scope of practice. It means that I have to do more on my own.

As of late, I’ve had some struggles, stress and anxiety which has prevented me from going to the gym as regularly as I should or I would like. Since now it’s a requirement for me to do group classes once a week as part of my assignments plus weekly training sessions as a class has been helping me ease back into the habit.

Hopefully, as time goes on I can learn how to do push-ups correctly. I just have to practice, practice, practice. Even if I have to use a stability ball that I got from school. I will do it.

Is there any exercise you struggle with?