Back on track

Starting weight: 222.5 Pounds

I’m back! ( I think?)

I have been trying to get back on this healthy path again. I mentioned awhile back that I have a couple of pinup contests this summer. One I was not in (a runner up) that has came and went, one in about a week, and then the big one summer spectacular in August! My dress for the show in August has came in it’s way out of my comfort zone as dresses go but I plan to rock it none the less that means losing a few pounds between now and then is my goal.

I had all intentions of starting this Monday: I would weigh in, make a good breakfast, go for a walk/workout around the lake before it got too hot, meal prep for the week and a good refueling lunch.

Let’s just say all but working out made the list today.

My monthly visitor is here and it reared it’s ugly head in my direction big time. I suddenly felt really exhausted, and had a massive headache develop on the side of my head. I usually have odd symptoms during it so I just drained all of a sudden. I took it as an indicator not to go on a walk so I made a smoothie, drank plenty of fluids and laid back down.

As I always say: Listen to your body is key.

After a two hour nap, I got up ran my errands, prepped my lunch for work tonight (adult lunchables this week), oats for breakfast tomorrow, and I made a salad for lunch with the rest of smoothie as well.

I almost wanted to scrap the idea of starting this again until after my cycle but then I thought what a better time to do it because I tend to want to really cheat when I am on my cycle you know more sweets and carbs. I want to prove to myself that I can do it!! I didn’t buy any chocolate when I did my small grocery run so I consider that a small victory for me. Lucky for me I only have a short cycle (3 days) I know I can do it!

Weighing in was really hard because this is the most I’ve weighed in a long time. It’s a hard pill to swallow but I won’t let it get me down! I have made some smaller goals to help aid in my success!

I am still doing a loose based Keto for my diet, I have been trying to find more recipes to try out. I haven’t brought bread since April which has been a bit of a game changer for me but I am a carb queen but I’ve noticed that I don’t miss it as much as I thought I would. I do give into sandwiches and stuff during my cheat days.

Anyways, I am hoping the rest of the week is better than Monday! I will end this post with a break down of my goals!

*Loose 5 pounds by July 21st

*Start walking again

*Go to the Y at least once a week

*Less pop and junk

*Loose 10 pounds by the end of July

Final end goal lose: 20 pounds by August 25th

I really want to make this happen! I just got to hang in there and remember my why’s!

I will be back doing weekly check ins to keep myself accountable!

See you in a week!

~Mags

 

 

 

 

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Checking In

Hello all,

There hasn’t been much to talk about lately. I did get a new car two weeks ago so that’s been good. I did weigh in tonight for curiosity sake which I haven’t since March 25th (2 months) which it has stayed the same with just 5 ounces so my current weight:

216.5

I really need to get back into things. It has been a constant struggle for me for a lot of reasons. Mainly I have been trying to focus on my mental health and sleep because I have not been sleeping super well at all.  As much as I love summer my apartment gets majorly hot (I have only window a.cs.) and the window a.c. is LOUD in my room so I have to figure out a way to silence it without turning it down and dying of heat stroke. I did put cardboard around them but they might need something else. We’ll see. I do use ear plugs which has helped.

Anyways I bought a skirt for an upcoming “dapper day” at my local zoo in two weeks and when I tried it on (it was 3x) I got stuck in it which was totally embarrassing and I couldn’t get it unzipped. I knew it was a sign that I really (truly) need to get my act together.

I know I’ve said it before but I truly want to set a goal and accomplish it. I want to lose at least 5 pounds in 2 weeks. That means no more pop, starting walking/exercising (I hope to get back into Jazzercise this week) and really watching what I eat. I think my downfall has been is not exercising, drinking more pop, and doing more cheat meals then I’m allowed. I have to be a bit stricter on myself this time around.

I have until June 9th so wish me luck!

~Mags

Real Talk: It’s not glamours

This is sort of an update but also I am being 100% real on here.

I can’t give a full report of Keto yet. The first week went really good and I only craved carbs a tad bit. By the 2nd week, I gave up and fell head first into carbs. What I think I need is a bit more structure with it.  As in I need to do better food prep for the weeks, including breakfasts. I downloaded a great recipe to try.

I decided to do a “looser” based keto diet. I am not giving up milk/cereals (I love my oats damnit) and peanut butter. However, I didn’t buy bread when I did my last grocery run and I don’t intend to when I go after work today.  Not making pasta/rice either.

Anyways, when I started this blog. I wasn’t sure how much I wanted to talk about my own personal struggles. I tend to be a private person with certain things because everything is so “out there” now days.

Honestly I wished I had written about my first weight loss journey all those years ago because I know it was not easy at all. This time it’s no exception. That’s the reality of life/any fitness related or not. I’m not going to pretend it’s all sunshine and rainbows because it’s not. I would be blowing smoke up my own ass.

I mentioned countless times how rough my weeks have been this year not for sympathy but to tell you you not everyone has the fantastic week of exercising every day (maybe even twice a day), staying on task with your diet, meal prep and drinking the gallons of water you see in all their photos. That I took 50 selfies of my booty pop, flexing in the mirror, showing off my washboard abs. It’s why I stopped following a chunk of “Fit” people on Instagram (more on that later). I bet you more times than not they have really shitty days but we don’t see it. Also, I do respect them as individuals too they have goals just like the rest of us. I am merely stating that the journey towards becoming healthy is not all glamours as we’re known to think.

It is important to look past the bad weeks, and push forward. Reset ourselves, and remember to re-focus on our goals to succeed.

Have a great week!

~Mags

 

 

Something different

Hello!

This isn’t much of an update because I didn’t weigh like I had said. I had another lousy week. I did see the dermatologist on Tuesday was given a prescription but it was never called into the pharmacy! Talk about frustrating!! So needless to say I am still itchy and miserable and I see them again in a week.

The mercury retrograde/weather have really taken it’s toll on me last week along with other emotional crap (yay me) so I spent more time focusing on self care.

I have decided to try a bit of Keto into my diet which I had thought about doing in the past but didn’t stick to it in the past. A summary of Keto is basically reverting back to caveman habits. Lots of meat come into play along with certain veggies/fruit. You do have to cut out a lot of stuff including carbs, peanut butter (eeek) milk, and starchy foods. I am not sure how well I am going to do on this but I am going to give it the old college try as they say.  I don’t think I can give up milk peruse but I am willing to give up pasta and bread for a while.

I am giving myself two weeks which is when I will go grocery shopping again to give it an honest effort as much as I can. Plus I am hoping to make it back to the gym this week! I promise! There won’t be any updates until then unless something Earth shattering happens!

I’ll see you in two weeks!

~Mags

Starting Over

It’s feel weird to say that.”Starting over”

Honestly, I never thought I would be in this position again after dropping all the weight. I knew I would have to maintain it and I managed to do well for a few years before I decided to go back to school.

My life for 2 long years was completely altered.

Before College:

I would get off work, get a light breakfast, go to the gym for an hour (or Jazzercise), come home eat a good meal, bathe and relax then sleep for work. And repeat almost every day.

College:

I would get off work, shove down a quick breakfast, change then drive 45 minutes to be at class by 9 until noon, drive 45 minutes home, come home then eat lunch (or sometimes drive through) then drive to unwind to sleep for work and repeat daily for the first two months then every other day for the next two years.

Even after going to part time, I felt I didn’t have time to workout, because I was exhausted from losing the extra sleep I was normally getting so I would go to bed early on non school days in hopes to catch up. But I was so stressed the overeating began, I stopped working out completely. The weight came back slowly and I felt really inferior to my classmates. Working a full time job overnights, then going to school part time in itself is a struggle just like it is for anyone else who has their own life.

I really tried to “start over” in 2018 that didn’t pan out as well I hoped. I made an honest effort but it fell through.

But I have not given up.

Yesterday I went to the gym for the first time in a month:

 

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It’s a bit blurry but….

I eased myself back doing about 15 minutes or so on the treadmill. Then I did a light lifting session including some dead-lifts, hip thrusts and ended with burpees. I probably spent about 35 minutes total (just a guess) there but at least I did it.

When I got home, I wiped clean my marker board (that kept track of my weight loss) and planning to “start over” with a new weigh in on Sunday. I haven’t really set any goals right now I just want to start (it is my word for 2018 after all) and go from there.

Weight loss isn’t easy but I will succeed! I will be posting my stats on Sunday/Monday!

Have a great weekend!

Mags

 

Check in

Starting Weight: 217.00

Current Weight: 213.00

-4 Pounds
It has been a hot minute since I’ve done a check in.  Last week was a straight up bitch, I had the start of cold then it turned into the flu so I was off work 2 nights and I hadn’t any solid food since last Wednesday.  Flu is not a fun way to lose weight but I’ll take it.

After avoiding the flu since the season started (November?) I went to Planet CC the weekend before, I was yet again exposed to sick people and this time it decided to kick my ass in every way possible. The only thing I managed to eat was jello and vanilla pudding (which I am straight up chocolate girl so you know I was sick but Vanilla snack packs are amaze-balls) plus endless amounts of 7-Up, Alka Seltzer and water. It’s hard AF to hydrate when you’re sick and nothing will stay down. TMI I know but finally Saturday I needed some protein and ate a cheeseburger (not from where I wanted one but you know) then Sunday I made a quick trip to the store for eggs, chicken, etc. I need to replenish my supply this week.

So I am feeling better for the most part despite the cough that won’t go away. I am hoping to do a reset this week and hopefully make it back to the gym this week. I am looking into getting a Simply Fit Board  as another workout option for when I can’t go to the gym, etc.  I have been watching The Nanny in the mornings and I thought maybe I could stand and use it during the hour I watch it.

I will let you know if I decide to invest in it and then a review will come later on.

That’s all I got for now gang! See you next week.

~Mags

Weekly Check In

Hello!

I am still going to weigh in on Sunday. But I wanted to share how my week has been. Yet again it has been another emotional week. We had two snow days this week. I did do an at home workout on Monday, but by the time I got home Tuesday, it was late in the morning my energy was really low. So I stayed in.

I did make it to the gym Wednesday and Thursday. I am debating about Friday because I may or may not to be going to Lincoln to visit my niece and nephew but they’ve been sick. So I am trying to avoid the plague as it were. I have yet to be sick.

Trek up the Tower is in three weeks and I haven’t done much “training” so I am worried that I am not going to do well.

Also my exam date is looming so I am trying to study and not wuss out.

As I was saying, going to the gym on Thursday was a tough day. I realize that I have to start back at square one again where I was 5 years ago, seeing all the fit people can be a bit intimidating when you are lifting with 2.5 pound weights. My focus has been Dumb Bell weights with both leg and upper body. I will have a post on that later on.

On top of other emotions that’s been going on too. I had to write a letter to myself when I got home, to help encourage me and plus to help whenever I have another bad day, I can refer back to this day and remember this is a process of my journey. Not to feat it.

I have only met 1 goal this week was to meal prep. I have still have Saturday (if I don’t go to Lincoln) to make it to the gym. Plus to clean my cupboards too. I left out my frozen fruit smoothie mix too long and it went to mush.

I want to make a trip to Trader Joe’s in Omaha. I have only been to the Lincoln location and that was a year ago. I recently saw a fellow You Tuber’s haul from Trader Joe’s and I want to get some items from there and they looked really good so I want to try. So if I do go I will share a haul on here. It maybe weird but hey they do it on You Tube…..

I am really excited for the weekend none the less. I need to recharge my batteries and get re-focused on my goals. I think January is a tough month for anyone.

Have a great weekend and see you Sunday!

~Mags