2017!

Happy New Year!!

While I didn’t get to ring the New Year exactly how I wanted, it’s time to start it off right. I am back to meal prep, and I am going back into the gym Monday. I am testing out a workout that I have planned for my brother. Last week, my mom had to be hospitalized for off the chart blood sugar levels and ironically enough my dad got a call from the doctors (while visiting mom) that my brother also had high blood sugar as well so he is being put on meds for it. Now there isn’t much record of diabetes in my family. My dad had a case of it 5 years ago (low blood sugar) and has meds to regulate it. Needless to say I want to take better care of myself along with my family!

I did a weigh in of the New Year but I will only be doing monthly weigh ins as opposed to weekly. I also took progress pictures to keep track. Weight wise I don’t have a specific goal but I ordered a skirt smaller than what my size is currently and my goal is February to fit into that. Which is about month but I am determined to do it!

Plus drinking more water! I have been doing okay with it but I want to step it up! I just ordered a water bottle from Motivational Bottle along with some resistance bands stay tuned for that products review!!

Let’s make 2017 the best year ever!!

What are your goals?

Mags

 

1 year

Today is my final day of school for the semester also this happens to be the date that I am graduating next year so I am 1 year away from that!

This semester as you know, has been very emotional and stressful for me. It has taken a toll everywhere including my weight. I have gained 25 pounds overall. Which is pretty disappointing to say the least. My weight loss anniversary was on December 2nd but I didn’t feel very victorious as I have in the past because I felt like I had failed not only myself and the people who I have inspired. Plus I had taken a leave of absence from the gym and Jazzercise because I felt so defeated in the whole process.

A lot has happened in the past year, and I have fell short of  a lot my goals. For 2017, I am not making very many goals my main focus is school but I think I will attempt  Trek up the Tower in February and maybe 5K the Hard Way in June (which was my first 5K).

As for my diet I am looking into Intuitive eating.  I think it just might be the solution I need. I hope with the holiday break I can ease back into a gym routine.

I will be back after the New Year to check in!

Have a Happy Holidays and awesome 2017!!

~Mags

 

Real Talk

I wasn’t sure how to title this post or exactly how to write it. But it’s been on my mind so I wanted to share with y’all about this.  This is real talk here I am laying it out all on the line.

As you know, I am studying to become a personal trainer. It just basically happened on accident. I was applying to another school to be something totally different when I was struggling to pass the “required” exam and I lost steam on the idea. A lot of people suggested it because of my success in weight loss and motivating others. Next thing you know a year later I am starting my 2nd year of the program with completing by next December of 2017. Also, it hasn’t been anything but easy more like a roller coaster of stress, and emotions. I’ve been so close to walking away from the program completely but then where would I be?

This fall semester has been quite a roller coaster too. In September, I learned how to design and program workouts. I applied those workouts to the newer training students who were my position one year ago. It was quite an emotional time for me because I don’t take criticism well (who doesn’t) and most days I left the gym in tears.

I have a love/hate relationship with my current instructor. This is the same instructor I had for a year now. He taught me both times in kinesiology, also in my testing and prescription class and these last two classes I’ve had in the fall. Last Tuesday, he, myself and, my two classmates (who I’ve known since March and they will be done soon since they are just getting certified) had a sit down. My instructor wanted us to talk positives/negatives about one another. This is a hard topic for me because:

  1. I hate to tell anyone their faults because I want people to like me (total Taurus thing)
  2. I don’t take criticism well especially negative ones

My instructor told me out of all his years of teaching the program, he’s never met anyone who is so uncomfortable in the program than me. Needless to say I was shocked. One of the things my instructor had said in the last class: That I am uncomfortable in the gym. It was a total slap in the face. It really hurt too. I’ve mentioned it causally on this blog.

I never thought I was uncomfortable in the gym. I had Jazzercised more than going to the gym (YMCA) but apparently it’s relevant. Maybe it’s because the gym I go to for school is different than the Y maybe that’s why I am uncomfortable? Worse part was hearing that I am not educated in workouts. I felt like saying “duh” on that one. Why do you think I am going to school? I’ve learned by watching and pinterest. I really wished my school had a class on exercise. But it’s disheartening to hear constantly: “You’re uncomfortable, You don’t know exercises” How is that helping me? If anything it makes me question my abilities and I feel defeated. I also with certain exercises that I used to do but when put on the spot I get flustered and embarrassed.  I think that’s part of the reason why I have been avoiding the gym/Jazzercise. I’ve lost my confidence.

Here’s the thing. My instructor needs to do both the positive and the negative. You can’t have one without the other. In my opinion, tell me what I did wrong but soften the blow by telling me what I did good. He even said it’s a sandwich Positive with a Negative followed by a Positive.  He fails to do that.  I understand I need to grow and be comfortable as a trainer but I need positive reinforcement too. Otherwise I am going to fall back into the shadows.

Now I have a whole new understanding of why a lot of people avoid the gym altogether. I was one of those as well, and have fallen back into that fear. I need to overcome it again and start over to find what I have lost so I can be the best damn trainer I can be.

One step at a time One day at a time.

~Mags

 

 

Monthly Update!

Wow. It’s already December! I have two full weeks left of school then my last day is December 20th. Then I will have another year to go!

November was a stressful month. I ended up losing my previous car and getting a new one all in about week apart from each other. Also I suffered a very serious muscle strain that took about two weeks to full recover from. I’m still not fully back on a routine gym wise yet. Mainly because I have to do some observations for my current class as a project so I want to get my schedule worked out with that. But I am hoping to squeeze in some time soon! Until then my school work is priority. Also there has been some news about school that I can’t share just yet but once I get more details I’ll make it public

Tomorrow is my weight loss anniversary 5 years already. Which in itself is hard to believe! I will be writing a full post about that in a few days.

Other than that there is nothing new to report. I am hoping to still register for Trek Up the Tower after Christmas and start my training in the New Year.

Have a great Holiday Season!

Mags

Wishy Washy Dieters

 Disclaimer: This post is my opinion. I know everyone has different lifestyles and choices.

We’ve all heard the term before yo-yo dieters or I’d like to call it wishy washy. People who try a bunch of different diets they lose weight for a while, then they fall off the wagon and gain weight, they try another diet, lose weight again then fall the wagon yet again and gain even more weight. I know because I’ve been there.

Why I am writing about this a friend I follow on social media IS a yo-yo dieter. I didn’t realize it until recently. This person has tried EVERYTHING that I can think of. They’ve done well but then they slip and they try yet another diet it is a vicious cycle. I feel bad for them because they have made excellent progress they just struggle when it comes to the diet part (mostly). I for one get it because I have not been on point at all either but I’ve seen this many other fellow weight loss people I follow they do super great for a while then suddenly they fall off the face of the planet (ahem like me and this blog) and you don’t hear from them for a long until they resurface trying something yet again that may sound great to them but they set themselves up for failure.

My story: If you remember, I joined Curves (is that even still around?) in early 2005-ish? And I was a solid member for almost two-years before I ended up quitting for personal reasons. But I did their weight loss class not once but twice because I really thought it could help me. The cost was about $70 it included the course for 30 minutes (I think) where we watched a video, then had a small discussion and weekly weigh ins, their “products” including a protein shake and their vitamins and a book on how to do their diet. They were three phases: The first being a don’t eat a whole lot phase, to a little more phase to a plateau phase where you increase your calories or whatever then when you felt you repeated phase one again. Strange I know but I did benefit from it. But it was hard because I was still living at home, so I really didn’t have control in the food that was purchased I had some say but I couldn’t strictly put my whole family on a diet.  However, I made it work. This was the only “diet” I really tried before I gave up and gained 217 pounds.

I never tried anything like Atkins, Weight Watchers, South Beach diet to name a few I did attempt Keto not long ago and also I tried to menu plan (which was failure) but mostly I would try to just cut back (like I did before) and try to exercise then I would lose weight but after some time I just fell back into my old habits. We all do. It happens its life. Find something that you’re able to do and stick to it. For me it was what I mentioned including drinking more water, cutting back on pop as well.

Back to my friend. A few days ago they admitted that they hadn’t been on point in their diet or their workout, they had been on a program for a while (a new one) and were going back to another original program before they tried this one, they admitted that: “eating clean was expensive, it’s the holidays, and they were going to eat processed foods”.

I am going to break this down for you from my view using some true and false with a bit explanations on my point of view on this.

  1. Eating clean is expensive. False. Yes and No. This all depends on you (plus your budget) and what YOU consider expensive. You don’t have to all clean but you can do simple modifications to eat healthier. I will be doing a post on that how to do it.
  2. It’s the holidays. True but that does that mean you give into temptations? No. I wrote last year how you can still enjoy the holidays without over doing it. “Everything in moderation” You can still have your cake or cookie and eat it to. Just don’t go overboard.
  3. Processed Foods. Tough subject. Depending who you ask too. I am guilty of eating processed foods as the next person. But I don’t guilt myself over it. Nobody is perfect. I think as I mentioned anyone can make simple changes to their diet.  Also you don’t have to eat out as often (I chose weekends) or make healthier options when if and when you go out.

But the good news is my friend plan to continue their workouts and will add healthier options to their meals. I think they will be ok in the long run they have come this far they just have to keep going. They struggle with nutrition (as do I) and getting things to work. I know how that is! I’ve been there done that. Just finding something that works and sticking to it is the hardest thing we have to do. But we must not give up!

Here’s to not giving up!

Mags

 

 

An update!

Hello! Sorry I haven’t written in awhile but there hasn’t been a lot to say. I have had a really tough time with things. I just finished a really rough semester (seems to be the trend!) of school. It gave me a lot of emotions to deal with especially with being so foreign with the gym.

I was told numerous times that I don’t feel comfortable being in a gym setting which I felt was a personal insult to me! I have been a member of the YMCA since 2008 and even though I haven’t gone as much as I’ve liked lately, I agree and disagree with that. The gym my school uses is Prairie Life Fitness in Omaha which is just a few blocks from Campus. But for me it’s a good 45 minutes away, why would I drive 45 minutes to go workout when I have a gym not even 2 minutes away from me? Heck there’s even one across the street! I can understand being uncomfortable with PLF because I don’t go there enough to feel comfortable there I’ve only gone with class when it’s required. The Y I feel comfortable enough there because I do know most of the equipment and I’ve been a member for so long. The other uncomfortable part for me is knowing workouts. I spent last semester programing workouts for “clients” (the new students) and I had to DIG deep to find workouts that can be done in many, many different ways. But a lot of workouts I don’t know well enough because I don’t do them or know how to do them properly. That’s a stumbling block for me. I know it. I need to overcome it!

But I have been so tired, stressed, sick, and a little depressed that my workouts have taken a complete back seat. I haven’t Jazzercised in 2 months! I am on the fence about ending my membership for the time being and just solely focusing on the Y again and reacquainted with workouts and variations of them.  It’s tough because I ❤ Jazzercise so much it was there when I needed a change and I enjoyed my time there. In order to be a good trainer I need to have that knowledge of the gym which I admit I do lack a little. I have been an observer in the gym for quite sometime and I’ve learned by watching others. So I have to be well rounded when it comes to workouts and how to manipulate them.

My newest class is conditioning which is what athletes do.  Unfortunately I have zero experience in that field because I never was one so it might be a weak point to me. I am going to try my darnedest to succeed at this even if it is foreign to me.

In other news, my weight hasn’t changed for 3 months, my HS reunion came and went, I felt really good about myself then. Which again for me is something hard to come by. I still struggle a lot with confidence especially in the gym too. Menu planning didn’t go well past the third week. I learned it’s not for me and that’s okay. I gave it the old college try and I will keep doing what I have been. I do need to get back on prep which went wayside after vacation.

What else? Oh Trek up the Tower registration has opened so once payday happens Friday I am signing up all on my own. I really want to beat my time from last year. I am loosely planning to start training soon I am hoping by the end of this week/starting next week I can get started on it! I now have a better idea of how to approach it!

That’s it for now. I am hoping to be back with posts soon. Just keep me in your thoughts!

Mags

 

 

Weekly update

Current Weight 183

I weighed in on Saturday 9/24 and as you can see I didn’t gain or lost just stayed the same so I am okay with that.

Last week was stressful but ended on a good note. I had sinus issues again Thursday so it made being in class/training extremely difficult. I stayed on task with my menu planning for the 2nd week too. Week 3 has gotten off to a rather shaky start. I didn’t grocery shop until Monday after so for my meal at work Sunday was just something quick to throw in the microwave.

Yesterday was bad too I have been struggling so much with school which is ironic because I was in the same position a year ago but in a different class!! But all you can do is keep moving forward as one of my friends is known to say!

With that, I am going to go to the Y today so I can familiarize myself with equipment again and hopefully  ease back in a routine. I have struggled with that as well. One day at a time.

Have a great day!

Mags