Real Talk: It’s not glamours

This is sort of an update but also I am being 100% real on here.

I can’t give a full report of Keto yet. The first week went really good and I only craved carbs a tad bit. By the 2nd week, I gave up and fell head first into carbs. What I think I need is a bit more structure with it.  As in I need to do better food prep for the weeks, including breakfasts. I downloaded a great recipe to try.

I decided to do a “looser” based keto diet. I am not giving up milk/cereals (I love my oats damnit) and peanut butter. However, I didn’t buy bread when I did my last grocery run and I don’t intend to when I go after work today.  Not making pasta/rice either.

Anyways, when I started this blog. I wasn’t sure how much I wanted to talk about my own personal struggles. I tend to be a private person with certain things because everything is so “out there” now days.

Honestly I wished I had written about my first weight loss journey all those years ago because I know it was not easy at all. This time it’s no exception. That’s the reality of life/any fitness related or not. I’m not going to pretend it’s all sunshine and rainbows because it’s not. I would be blowing smoke up my own ass.

I mentioned countless times how rough my weeks have been this year not for sympathy but to tell you you not everyone has the fantastic week of exercising every day (maybe even twice a day), staying on task with your diet, meal prep and drinking the gallons of water you see in all their photos. That I took 50 selfies of my booty pop, flexing in the mirror, showing off my washboard abs. It’s why I stopped following a chunk of “Fit” people on Instagram (more on that later). I bet you more times than not they have really shitty days but we don’t see it. Also, I do respect them as individuals too they have goals just like the rest of us. I am merely stating that the journey towards becoming healthy is not all glamours as we’re known to think.

It is important to look past the bad weeks, and push forward. Reset ourselves, and remember to re-focus on our goals to succeed.

Have a great week!

~Mags

 

 

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What to do when you gained

So you stepped on the scale. You don’t like what you see, you step off remove any article of clothing you may have on, you step on the scale again, you still like what you see. Stepping off again you remove your underwear and any jewelry, maybe even your hair tie in hopes that will somehow change the number on the scale. You step on again completely buck naked and that number does not change.

Sound familiar?

If anyone has seen This Is Us in that first episode we see Kate (played by the fabulous Chrissy Metz)  as she does the dreaded weigh in and she does the exact same things (minus the hair tie) I mentioned above and you can’t help but feel her pain then totally cringe when she falls off the scale and you don’t know whether you should laugh or cry. Because the struggle is indeed real. (I did neither but I did gasp because I am a klutz but I have yet to fall off the scale).

Let me set the scene for you:

I woke up at 1am Sunday thinking about the weighing in, thinking how hungry I am so I get up, pee, then I step on the scale: 215.00 well, that can’t be right. I step off and step on again (fully dressed well in my pajamas) 215.5 seriously? I go back to bed thinking maybe a few more hours of sleep thinking that I can magically lose those extra pounds fasting.

5am wake up pee yet again and step on the scale: 215.5 pounds. There you have it. The scale does not lie. At this rate I go make myself breakfast and do the math. I gained 1.5 pounds. Which is not bad. However in my mind’s eye I am thinking how it’s 1.5 steps backwards in my direction not forward. Then I think I shouldn’t have all the carbs for breakfast on Saturday, or the two cookies at the Swap and Sell I went to.

Needless to say that has nothing to do with it. Weight gain is common in weight loss. Just as plateauing.  I know this. However, it doesn’t soften the blow any.

This is has inspired me to write this post. So here’s some advice for you if this is your first time or this is my 2nd go round how to handle the weight gain.

*Stay on task.

Just because you gain, doesn’t mean you should dive head first into the treats. Or chug down a soda. You will really reverse your progress and you feel crappy after.

*Try not obsess over it.

Okay so yeah I obsessed as you can see but it really doesn’t help any. And don’t think of fasting for another day, or going to the gym to try and lose that pesky pound then weighing in the same day or the next.

*Keep yourself busy

Or anything to take your mind off things. Which I did, I made breakfast then I meal prepped for the week.

*It could be muscle gain

A no brainier here and that could well be the possibility I gained since I started lifting again. Even though I have not been fully been lifting solidly for a month yet.

*It’s no the end of the world

Really.

*You’re allowed to be upset

But don’t drag it out.

*Take a deep breath and let it go

Enough said

*You’ll have a better weigh in next time

Truth.

 

I hope these tips help you out. If forgot anything please let me know!

Until next time,

~Mags

 

 

Real Talk

I wasn’t sure how to title this post or exactly how to write it. But it’s been on my mind so I wanted to share with y’all about this.  This is real talk here I am laying it out all on the line.

As you know, I am studying to become a personal trainer. It just basically happened on accident. I was applying to another school to be something totally different when I was struggling to pass the “required” exam and I lost steam on the idea. A lot of people suggested it because of my success in weight loss and motivating others. Next thing you know a year later I am starting my 2nd year of the program with completing by next December of 2017. Also, it hasn’t been anything but easy more like a roller coaster of stress, and emotions. I’ve been so close to walking away from the program completely but then where would I be?

This fall semester has been quite a roller coaster too. In September, I learned how to design and program workouts. I applied those workouts to the newer training students who were my position one year ago. It was quite an emotional time for me because I don’t take criticism well (who doesn’t) and most days I left the gym in tears.

I have a love/hate relationship with my current instructor. This is the same instructor I had for a year now. He taught me both times in kinesiology, also in my testing and prescription class and these last two classes I’ve had in the fall. Last Tuesday, he, myself and, my two classmates (who I’ve known since March and they will be done soon since they are just getting certified) had a sit down. My instructor wanted us to talk positives/negatives about one another. This is a hard topic for me because:

  1. I hate to tell anyone their faults because I want people to like me (total Taurus thing)
  2. I don’t take criticism well especially negative ones

My instructor told me out of all his years of teaching the program, he’s never met anyone who is so uncomfortable in the program than me. Needless to say I was shocked. One of the things my instructor had said in the last class: That I am uncomfortable in the gym. It was a total slap in the face. It really hurt too. I’ve mentioned it causally on this blog.

I never thought I was uncomfortable in the gym. I had Jazzercised more than going to the gym (YMCA) but apparently it’s relevant. Maybe it’s because the gym I go to for school is different than the Y maybe that’s why I am uncomfortable? Worse part was hearing that I am not educated in workouts. I felt like saying “duh” on that one. Why do you think I am going to school? I’ve learned by watching and pinterest. I really wished my school had a class on exercise. But it’s disheartening to hear constantly: “You’re uncomfortable, You don’t know exercises” How is that helping me? If anything it makes me question my abilities and I feel defeated. I also with certain exercises that I used to do but when put on the spot I get flustered and embarrassed.  I think that’s part of the reason why I have been avoiding the gym/Jazzercise. I’ve lost my confidence.

Here’s the thing. My instructor needs to do both the positive and the negative. You can’t have one without the other. In my opinion, tell me what I did wrong but soften the blow by telling me what I did good. He even said it’s a sandwich Positive with a Negative followed by a Positive.  He fails to do that.  I understand I need to grow and be comfortable as a trainer but I need positive reinforcement too. Otherwise I am going to fall back into the shadows.

Now I have a whole new understanding of why a lot of people avoid the gym altogether. I was one of those as well, and have fallen back into that fear. I need to overcome it again and start over to find what I have lost so I can be the best damn trainer I can be.

One step at a time One day at a time.

~Mags

 

 

An update!

Hello! Sorry I haven’t written in awhile but there hasn’t been a lot to say. I have had a really tough time with things. I just finished a really rough semester (seems to be the trend!) of school. It gave me a lot of emotions to deal with especially with being so foreign with the gym.

I was told numerous times that I don’t feel comfortable being in a gym setting which I felt was a personal insult to me! I have been a member of the YMCA since 2008 and even though I haven’t gone as much as I’ve liked lately, I agree and disagree with that. The gym my school uses is Prairie Life Fitness in Omaha which is just a few blocks from Campus. But for me it’s a good 45 minutes away, why would I drive 45 minutes to go workout when I have a gym not even 2 minutes away from me? Heck there’s even one across the street! I can understand being uncomfortable with PLF because I don’t go there enough to feel comfortable there I’ve only gone with class when it’s required. The Y I feel comfortable enough there because I do know most of the equipment and I’ve been a member for so long. The other uncomfortable part for me is knowing workouts. I spent last semester programing workouts for “clients” (the new students) and I had to DIG deep to find workouts that can be done in many, many different ways. But a lot of workouts I don’t know well enough because I don’t do them or know how to do them properly. That’s a stumbling block for me. I know it. I need to overcome it!

But I have been so tired, stressed, sick, and a little depressed that my workouts have taken a complete back seat. I haven’t Jazzercised in 2 months! I am on the fence about ending my membership for the time being and just solely focusing on the Y again and reacquainted with workouts and variations of them.  It’s tough because I ❤ Jazzercise so much it was there when I needed a change and I enjoyed my time there. In order to be a good trainer I need to have that knowledge of the gym which I admit I do lack a little. I have been an observer in the gym for quite sometime and I’ve learned by watching others. So I have to be well rounded when it comes to workouts and how to manipulate them.

My newest class is conditioning which is what athletes do.  Unfortunately I have zero experience in that field because I never was one so it might be a weak point to me. I am going to try my darnedest to succeed at this even if it is foreign to me.

In other news, my weight hasn’t changed for 3 months, my HS reunion came and went, I felt really good about myself then. Which again for me is something hard to come by. I still struggle a lot with confidence especially in the gym too. Menu planning didn’t go well past the third week. I learned it’s not for me and that’s okay. I gave it the old college try and I will keep doing what I have been. I do need to get back on prep which went wayside after vacation.

What else? Oh Trek up the Tower registration has opened so once payday happens Friday I am signing up all on my own. I really want to beat my time from last year. I am loosely planning to start training soon I am hoping by the end of this week/starting next week I can get started on it! I now have a better idea of how to approach it!

That’s it for now. I am hoping to be back with posts soon. Just keep me in your thoughts!

Mags

 

 

Weekly update

Current Weight 183

I weighed in on Saturday 9/24 and as you can see I didn’t gain or lost just stayed the same so I am okay with that.

Last week was stressful but ended on a good note. I had sinus issues again Thursday so it made being in class/training extremely difficult. I stayed on task with my menu planning for the 2nd week too. Week 3 has gotten off to a rather shaky start. I didn’t grocery shop until Monday after so for my meal at work Sunday was just something quick to throw in the microwave.

Yesterday was bad too I have been struggling so much with school which is ironic because I was in the same position a year ago but in a different class!! But all you can do is keep moving forward as one of my friends is known to say!

With that, I am going to go to the Y today so I can familiarize myself with equipment again and hopefully  ease back in a routine. I have struggled with that as well. One day at a time.

Have a great day!

Mags

Menu Plan take 2

Well the week is almost over and ending my 2nd attempt at the menu planning! If you remember I kind of fell off the wagon after the first week. I am pleased to report that I did a lot better this time around!!

I did make some alterations but for the most part I stayed on task. By the time Thursday rolled around, I had gotten home late from class which I am usually home by 1pm but I didn’t since class/training ran late. Plus my sinuses reared it’s ugly head and by the time I got home I didn’t want to put together my leftovers, I was hot, stuffy, and tired  so I settled for a Lean Cuisine meal but I had some unsweetened apple sauce with it then prepped hard-boiled to have for a light supper along with a bowl of cereal (I know an odd combination).

This weekend is when I will grocery shop so I will do a tentative menu plan. I think going week by week is way better than two weeks out. So look for pictures of everything soon.

I am excited I found some more mushroom recipes that I am going to try! (Post on that soon!!)

I’ll be back hopefully with weigh in results!

Have a great weekend!

Mags

 

 

Weekly update!

Hello!

I start my 3rd week of school this week and last week was our first week of training the new PT students. I keep thinking how INSANE it is that I was in their position a year ago!!! Also at a different gym. And now I am creating and writing workouts.  What a difference a year makes! Still a work in process!

I have looked back at last year and I struggled so much. If I could go back and tell my last year self “Hey girl (yes I did say that!) you’re struggling right now but guess what? You get through it and you come out the other side!”

Last week, I mentioned I didn’t do well with the whole menu plan so I am trying it again this week. I made it loose so I not fully committed and have done some minor changes. Monday was a full on meal prep day, I made my food for work for the week with my crock which I have been using a lot more lately (it’s getting to be that time of year!), I made taco meat and I finally tried a new recipe (remember when I wanted to a while back??):

pizza

Veggie Pizza!! Here’s the recipe.  I did make round as opposed to square and used 1 tube of crescent rolls (low fat), only 1 block of cream cheese (low fat),  half the dry ranch packet, (low fat) miracle whip. Oh and I used a little bit of (low fat) Mozzarella shredded cheese. I made the crust ahead of time then I topped the pizza later in the morning. Turned out really good! I have been this whole pizza kick lately because I have been craving Domino’s so I have been trying to find somewhat healthier options. Last week, I did portabella stuffed mushroom pizzas (mushrooms are my jam!) too.

Last but not least I finally went back to the gym Monday! As you know I have been struggling emotionally and my motivation has been low but finally I went in and did a simple workout.

I have weigh-in this week which I might wait till Saturday.

Goal for the week: Is to stay on track with my menu plan and at least attend 2 classes of Jazzercise since I haven’t been in almost a month!!

I will be back later to report my 2nd round of menu planning!

Have a great week!

Mags