Starting Over

It’s feel weird to say that.”Starting over”

Honestly, I never thought I would be in this position again after dropping all the weight. I knew I would have to maintain it and I managed to do well for a few years before I decided to go back to school.

My life for 2 long years was completely altered.

Before College:

I would get off work, get a light breakfast, go to the gym for an hour (or Jazzercise), come home eat a good meal, bathe and relax then sleep for work. And repeat almost every day.

College:

I would get off work, shove down a quick breakfast, change then drive 45 minutes to be at class by 9 until noon, drive 45 minutes home, come home then eat lunch (or sometimes drive through) then drive to unwind to sleep for work and repeat daily for the first two months then every other day for the next two years.

Even after going to part time, I felt I didn’t have time to workout, because I was exhausted from losing the extra sleep I was normally getting so I would go to bed early on non school days in hopes to catch up. But I was so stressed the overeating began, I stopped working out completely. The weight came back slowly and I felt really inferior to my classmates. Working a full time job overnights, then going to school part time in itself is a struggle just like it is for anyone else who has their own life.

I really tried to “start over” in 2018 that didn’t pan out as well I hoped. I made an honest effort but it fell through.

But I have not given up.

Yesterday I went to the gym for the first time in a month:

 

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It’s a bit blurry but….

I eased myself back doing about 15 minutes or so on the treadmill. Then I did a light lifting session including some dead-lifts, hip thrusts and ended with burpees. I probably spent about 35 minutes total (just a guess) there but at least I did it.

When I got home, I wiped clean my marker board (that kept track of my weight loss) and planning to “start over” with a new weigh in on Sunday. I haven’t really set any goals right now I just want to start (it is my word for 2018 after all) and go from there.

Weight loss isn’t easy but I will succeed! I will be posting my stats on Sunday/Monday!

Have a great weekend!

Mags

 

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I can’t do a push-up

Real talk here peeps.

I am currently taking a “group exercise class” for my requirements for my personal training certificate. It requires me to go to various group exercise classes at the Y or the local gym in Omaha. I have to observe the class while participating, along with attending “lab” or actual class room time once a week for discussion, then after we take an hour to go to the gym and we take turns “training” a group exercise class consisting of ourselves, some outside people, and a few teachers from school.

We did this workout which was as many reps that we can do in an certain amount  of time all with a kettle bell:

We did sqauts

Upright rows

Push Ups

Squats into an overhead extension

Then run 1 lap around the track (I so don’t run I walk it)

And repeat.

Fun right? (Total ass kicker by the way and I plan to do it on my own)

But I can’t do push ups.

My form is all wrong etc, etc. It was embarrassing that I, a 34-year old personal training student can’t do a damn push-up. I never could do them, even on my knees apparently I don’t do them right. Worse that two older women in my group can actually do them on their knees and I can’t. I wound up using a bar that held mats to do them standing. Don’t get me started with planks I am lucky I do those right (sometimes).

This is not the first time I’ve been embarrassed by lack of knowledge and form. I am learning but it’s upsetting to me when I can’t do anything right. I snuck a peek at my instructors notebook after our workout and all over I saw (Maggie form) it felt like a kick in the stomach.

To be honest I have only worked out on my own under no guidance no trainer (I’m cheap ha) so I’ve learned as I go (which is how I roll) plus visually. That’s one of the disadvantages of an accelerated program like mine not everything is going to be included in our scope of practice. It means that I have to do more on my own.

As of late, I’ve had some struggles, stress and anxiety which has prevented me from going to the gym as regularly as I should or I would like. Since now it’s a requirement for me to do group classes once a week as part of my assignments plus weekly training sessions as a class has been helping me ease back into the habit.

Hopefully, as time goes on I can learn how to do push-ups correctly. I just have to practice, practice, practice. Even if I have to use a stability ball that I got from school. I will do it.

Is there any exercise you struggle with?
~Mags