It’s feel weird to say that.”Starting over”
Honestly, I never thought I would be in this position again after dropping all the weight. I knew I would have to maintain it and I managed to do well for a few years before I decided to go back to school.
My life for 2 long years was completely altered.
I would get off work, get a light breakfast, go to the gym for an hour (or Jazzercise), come home eat a good meal, bathe and relax then sleep for work. And repeat almost every day.
I would get off work, shove down a quick breakfast, change then drive 45 minutes to be at class by 9 until noon, drive 45 minutes home, come home then eat lunch (or sometimes drive through) then drive to unwind to sleep for work and repeat daily for the first two months then every other day for the next two years.
Even after going to part time, I felt I didn’t have time to workout, because I was exhausted from losing the extra sleep I was normally getting so I would go to bed early on non school days in hopes to catch up. But I was so stressed the overeating began, I stopped working out completely. The weight came back slowly and I felt really inferior to my classmates. Working a full time job overnights, then going to school part time in itself is a struggle just like it is for anyone else who has their own life.
I really tried to “start over” in 2018 that didn’t pan out as well I hoped. I made an honest effort but it fell through.
But I have not given up.
Yesterday I went to the gym for the first time in a month:
I eased myself back doing about 15 minutes or so on the treadmill. Then I did a light lifting session including some dead-lifts, hip thrusts and ended with burpees. I probably spent about 35 minutes total (just a guess) there but at least I did it.
When I got home, I wiped clean my marker board (that kept track of my weight loss) and planning to “start over” with a new weigh in on Sunday. I haven’t really set any goals right now I just want to start (it is my word for 2018 after all) and go from there.
Weight loss isn’t easy but I will succeed! I will be posting my stats on Sunday/Monday!
Have a great weekend!