What to do when you gained

So you stepped on the scale. You don’t like what you see, you step off remove any article of clothing you may have on, you step on the scale again, you still like what you see. Stepping off again you remove your underwear and any jewelry, maybe even your hair tie in hopes that will somehow change the number on the scale. You step on again completely buck naked and that number does not change.

Sound familiar?

If anyone has seen This Is Us in that first episode we see Kate (played by the fabulous Chrissy Metz)  as she does the dreaded weigh in and she does the exact same things (minus the hair tie) I mentioned above and you can’t help but feel her pain then totally cringe when she falls off the scale and you don’t know whether you should laugh or cry. Because the struggle is indeed real. (I did neither but I did gasp because I am a klutz but I have yet to fall off the scale).

Let me set the scene for you:

I woke up at 1am Sunday thinking about the weighing in, thinking how hungry I am so I get up, pee, then I step on the scale: 215.00 well, that can’t be right. I step off and step on again (fully dressed well in my pajamas) 215.5 seriously? I go back to bed thinking maybe a few more hours of sleep thinking that I can magically lose those extra pounds fasting.

5am wake up pee yet again and step on the scale: 215.5 pounds. There you have it. The scale does not lie. At this rate I go make myself breakfast and do the math. I gained 1.5 pounds. Which is not bad. However in my mind’s eye I am thinking how it’s 1.5 steps backwards in my direction not forward. Then I think I shouldn’t have all the carbs for breakfast on Saturday, or the two cookies at the Swap and Sell I went to.

Needless to say that has nothing to do with it. Weight gain is common in weight loss. Just as plateauing.  I know this. However, it doesn’t soften the blow any.

This is has inspired me to write this post. So here’s some advice for you if this is your first time or this is my 2nd go round how to handle the weight gain.

*Stay on task.

Just because you gain, doesn’t mean you should dive head first into the treats. Or chug down a soda. You will really reverse your progress and you feel crappy after.

*Try not obsess over it.

Okay so yeah I obsessed as you can see but it really doesn’t help any. And don’t think of fasting for another day, or going to the gym to try and lose that pesky pound then weighing in the same day or the next.

*Keep yourself busy

Or anything to take your mind off things. Which I did, I made breakfast then I meal prepped for the week.

*It could be muscle gain

A no brainier here and that could well be the possibility I gained since I started lifting again. Even though I have not been fully been lifting solidly for a month yet.

*It’s no the end of the world

Really.

*You’re allowed to be upset

But don’t drag it out.

*Take a deep breath and let it go

Enough said

*You’ll have a better weigh in next time

Truth.

 

I hope these tips help you out. If forgot anything please let me know!

Until next time,

~Mags

 

 

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2017 Recap

Hello! It’s been a while. But now I can finally write this….

I AM A COLLEGE GRADUATE!

I officially graduated (got my diploma) December 20, 2017. A 100 pound burden has been lifted off my shoulders. Let me tell you the last 8 weeks prior to that were rough.  I lost a lot of sleep, was stressed to the max and it a toll on my body. Although I wasn’t sick sick (you know cold or flu *knocks wood*) but I had a lot anxiety which caused my stomach to hurt or gave me diarrhea (TMI)  plus endless headaches. I often felt light headed too which scared me so I tried to sit as much as I could since I have a history of fainting. Luckily I managed to get through all my very hard trails and came out the other side.

My instructor tried to get to balance my life out with a schedule on an excel spread sheet which I am not a fan of digital media for something like that. She was trying to get me to plan my life down to a T which really bothered me.  I like to plan but I felt I was over planning you know?

I haven’t been to the gym only to work on my internship but not on my own. I tried to during that time but I just couldn’t force myself to do it. I chose sleep more often than going because I needed it more. I am all about self care. My instructor again wanted to know details of EVERYTHING about me going to the gym which again bothered me. I know there are some obstacles to overcome but I feel my progress is for me and me only.

So I am ending 2017 probably at my heaviest that I have been since I originally lost all my weight I haven’t weighed in since October but I am okay with that.

2018 is going to be my year (more on that later) I am excited! I will be back to blogging a bit more soon too. Doing my weekly check ins and weigh ins.

Stay tuned and have a Happy New Year!

~Mags

I can’t do a push-up

Real talk here peeps.

I am currently taking a “group exercise class” for my requirements for my personal training certificate. It requires me to go to various group exercise classes at the Y or the local gym in Omaha. I have to observe the class while participating, along with attending “lab” or actual class room time once a week for discussion, then after we take an hour to go to the gym and we take turns “training” a group exercise class consisting of ourselves, some outside people, and a few teachers from school.

We did this workout which was as many reps that we can do in an certain amount  of time all with a kettle bell:

We did sqauts

Upright rows

Push Ups

Squats into an overhead extension

Then run 1 lap around the track (I so don’t run I walk it)

And repeat.

Fun right? (Total ass kicker by the way and I plan to do it on my own)

But I can’t do push ups.

My form is all wrong etc, etc. It was embarrassing that I, a 34-year old personal training student can’t do a damn push-up. I never could do them, even on my knees apparently I don’t do them right. Worse that two older women in my group can actually do them on their knees and I can’t. I wound up using a bar that held mats to do them standing. Don’t get me started with planks I am lucky I do those right (sometimes).

This is not the first time I’ve been embarrassed by lack of knowledge and form. I am learning but it’s upsetting to me when I can’t do anything right. I snuck a peek at my instructors notebook after our workout and all over I saw (Maggie form) it felt like a kick in the stomach.

To be honest I have only worked out on my own under no guidance no trainer (I’m cheap ha) so I’ve learned as I go (which is how I roll) plus visually. That’s one of the disadvantages of an accelerated program like mine not everything is going to be included in our scope of practice. It means that I have to do more on my own.

As of late, I’ve had some struggles, stress and anxiety which has prevented me from going to the gym as regularly as I should or I would like. Since now it’s a requirement for me to do group classes once a week as part of my assignments plus weekly training sessions as a class has been helping me ease back into the habit.

Hopefully, as time goes on I can learn how to do push-ups correctly. I just have to practice, practice, practice. Even if I have to use a stability ball that I got from school. I will do it.

Is there any exercise you struggle with?
~Mags

 

Fork in the road

Wow.  I don’t even know where to begin. I really thought 2017 was going to be my year.  I was going to STRIVE for success. So far it has not we’re already four months in and I want a divorce from 2017.

I have tried to be optimistic

I have tried to be positive

I tried to STRIVE forward

BUT……

I’ve felt nothing but stagnant. School hasn’t gotten any easier since I started back in January. In fact it has not gotten any better. Last week I was slammed with news not once but twice. My instructor even came down on me pretty hard the week before that I cried the whole 45 minute drive on the way home.

My job has been stressful since the start of the New Year too, I’ve had to put in numerous days of OT when I’m not at school which has added to the stress load.

The gym has taken a backseat I haven’t been since maybe January? Meal planning has been a hit and a miss. I’ve cheated way more than I should have and I have put on 30 pounds. Clothes aren’t fitting again. I am not proud of that.

I think part of the problem is I don’t have any real goals set. I decided not to do Trek up the Tower this year because prior to that when I had planned to train, I had an rather painful injury where I had pulled my quad muscles severely so I took two weeks off in order to recover. I thought about 5K the Hardway again but I don’t know my schedule past May, so I can’t even schedule the Color Run either it’s been frustrating so I have been saying no to any commitments like them.

What’s a girl to do?

To be honest, I am not sure what the answer is. Usually I am so sure of myself but my confidence has taken a backseat as well.

Here’s the BUT again…..

Sunday morning, I cleaned out my cupboards and my fridge. I went grocery shopping Monday after work. I stuck to my list and only bought said items on there which I rarely do. I did add a few things that I had forgotten but I didn’t buy any sweets. I made myself a smoothie for breakfast then I drove out to Johnson Lake and walked around 1 time. I also did some upright push ups on the benches along the way (I need to figure out how many benches they are total so I could do the math on how many reps I do on each one) The wind was pretty strong (love Nebraska) is why I only made it around 1 time plus I can tell I am out of shape! I came home and cooked lunch:

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I got some pork chops but I cut it in half and bought some broccoli and cheese tater tots ( I had a coupon) they tasted really good! I did some meal prepping too this week. I have been back to drinking tons of water.

It’s a start. My birthday is this week. I may have a cheat day and I am going to try to make it to the gym this week as well since the weather looks ify the rest of the week so I may not be able to get out and walk.

I have my final today then I start back up with classes next week!

I’ll try to update when I can.

Mags

 

 

 

 

 

Monthly update

I wish I was writing a happier post but alas that’s not reality. I decided not to weigh in this month because it has been a horrible month.

Work has been very stressful we’re down to three original staff members the rest have retired or quit. I had to put in overtime last week so no gym at all. Which I didn’t go at all this entire month I am ashamed to admit I didn’t even make it to the Cross fit class like I mentioned. My eating has been poor I’ve stressed eaten way too much and drank pop pretty regularly.

Plus school on top of it which the last two weeks I’ve had a big assignment due that needed my attention more. Today is my last day of the 1st semester next semester (which starts next Monday) is nutrition!!! I am little anxious to start that because I know mine isn’t as great. *sighs*

But it can only get better from here! I am going to take charge again better my eating I even got some unflavored protein powder so I am going to try my first shake with some of it, I also got kale! (I found a great recipe for dressing that I will share after I try it). Plus back to no pop. It’s my downfall but I need to do better with it.

As for getting back into a workout routine, I just need to do it. Tomorrow I plan go back to the Y. I think I will start maybe with some walking at the track then maybe swim, I want to ease myself back into it. I am hoping by the end of the week I can go back to Jazzercise too. That is my goals for the week.

I will check back with you in a week!!

~Mags

 

 

 

Strive 2017

After much debate, I have a word for 2017. If you remember last year, my word was Achieve and I felt like I haven’t achieved anything. Honestly I really wasn’t going to have a word this year because I felt like 2016 was a such let down for me because I only “achieved” four of my goals. I’ve openly have talked about my struggles as I entered into the New Year, a little rough too I might add, I kind of dismissed having a word altogether. But the more I thought about it, and I was in class the other day working on my “business plan” and the word that I have been thinking about using Strive came into my mind for a gym name. Granted it’s just part of my business class, I am not sure if I will go into my own business or not after I graduate. But I liked the idea so I went with it. Actually I had gotten up early before class and went to the Y. After I logged my workout, I wrote STRIVE on my marker board:

strive

I want to STRIVE at the gym again

I want to STRIVE in school

I want to STRIVE in my decisions

I want to STRIVE to be healthier

I want to STRIVE in my meal plans

I want to STRIVE in my goals

And so on. I guess it’s not so bad to have a word after all. Let’s STRIVE for an awesome 2017!

~Mags

 

Real Talk

I wasn’t sure how to title this post or exactly how to write it. But it’s been on my mind so I wanted to share with y’all about this.  This is real talk here I am laying it out all on the line.

As you know, I am studying to become a personal trainer. It just basically happened on accident. I was applying to another school to be something totally different when I was struggling to pass the “required” exam and I lost steam on the idea. A lot of people suggested it because of my success in weight loss and motivating others. Next thing you know a year later I am starting my 2nd year of the program with completing by next December of 2017. Also, it hasn’t been anything but easy more like a roller coaster of stress, and emotions. I’ve been so close to walking away from the program completely but then where would I be?

This fall semester has been quite a roller coaster too. In September, I learned how to design and program workouts. I applied those workouts to the newer training students who were my position one year ago. It was quite an emotional time for me because I don’t take criticism well (who doesn’t) and most days I left the gym in tears.

I have a love/hate relationship with my current instructor. This is the same instructor I had for a year now. He taught me both times in kinesiology, also in my testing and prescription class and these last two classes I’ve had in the fall. Last Tuesday, he, myself and, my two classmates (who I’ve known since March and they will be done soon since they are just getting certified) had a sit down. My instructor wanted us to talk positives/negatives about one another. This is a hard topic for me because:

  1. I hate to tell anyone their faults because I want people to like me (total Taurus thing)
  2. I don’t take criticism well especially negative ones

My instructor told me out of all his years of teaching the program, he’s never met anyone who is so uncomfortable in the program than me. Needless to say I was shocked. One of the things my instructor had said in the last class: That I am uncomfortable in the gym. It was a total slap in the face. It really hurt too. I’ve mentioned it causally on this blog.

I never thought I was uncomfortable in the gym. I had Jazzercised more than going to the gym (YMCA) but apparently it’s relevant. Maybe it’s because the gym I go to for school is different than the Y maybe that’s why I am uncomfortable? Worse part was hearing that I am not educated in workouts. I felt like saying “duh” on that one. Why do you think I am going to school? I’ve learned by watching and pinterest. I really wished my school had a class on exercise. But it’s disheartening to hear constantly: “You’re uncomfortable, You don’t know exercises” How is that helping me? If anything it makes me question my abilities and I feel defeated. I also with certain exercises that I used to do but when put on the spot I get flustered and embarrassed.  I think that’s part of the reason why I have been avoiding the gym/Jazzercise. I’ve lost my confidence.

Here’s the thing. My instructor needs to do both the positive and the negative. You can’t have one without the other. In my opinion, tell me what I did wrong but soften the blow by telling me what I did good. He even said it’s a sandwich Positive with a Negative followed by a Positive.  He fails to do that.  I understand I need to grow and be comfortable as a trainer but I need positive reinforcement too. Otherwise I am going to fall back into the shadows.

Now I have a whole new understanding of why a lot of people avoid the gym altogether. I was one of those as well, and have fallen back into that fear. I need to overcome it again and start over to find what I have lost so I can be the best damn trainer I can be.

One step at a time One day at a time.

~Mags