Weekly Check In

Starting weight: 217.00

Current weight: 215.5

As you can see I did not gain or lost this past week. Which is fine with me!

I totally missed the gym last week. There’s no real excuse as of why the week wasn’t that bad either just felt overly tired and I focused on my home which needed my attention.  Also I am glad it’s a new month because I have some exciting things happening!

But first:

I rescheduled my certification exam for the spring. Mainly because I wasn’t as ready to do it as I wanted to be. I started studying just like a week before and I wasn’t confident in my practice test scores either plus with it still being winter here (thanks a lot groundhog dude) I rather not chance the weather since the testing place is a good 45 minutes or so away.  (that’s driving distance)

I am not doing Trek Up the Tower. Mainly because I haven’t trained hard for it as I wanted this is mostly on me and lack of motivation which has been an issue for me. That’s a post for another day I’m sure.

I had a pop on Saturday after almost three weeks of not having one and it tasted awful. I think I finally broke my habit so that I don’t have to go back down that path.  Plus the cravings have subsided. A major victory for me.

Now onto the good news:

I have a Grease themed shoot Sunday. I am really excited for this!

I am going to Planet Comic Con and meet one of my idols Jason David Frank (he played the green ranger/white ranger in the early 90’s when I watched power rangers). I was supposed to go meet him two years ago but that fell through so I am really excited!


Other than that, I have nothing new to report. I am not setting any weekly goals as I am just going with the flow.

See you next week!





Weekly Weigh In

Starting Weight 217.00

Current Weight 215.5

Gained 1.5 pounds

Well. I gained. Needless to say I was a tad disappointed in myself but it is what it is. However it  has inspired me to write another post about what to do when you gain. I also think since I have started lifting again it might a bit of muscle weight.

I did have some doubts about my weigh in Sunday morning before bed Saturday night. Granted I did have  a lot of carbs this weekend and I am not going to beat myself up over it or the fact I didn’t make it to the gym or Trader Joes (neither one aren’t going anywhere) I am two weeks soda (or pop) free. So that’s really exciting even though I was really tempted to Sunday night before work since I didn’t sleep all that well but I realized that I would be letting myself down big time if I did that.

Also I was able to get in my meal prep for the 3 days I am working. It’s the small victories.

Goals for the week:

*Gym four days this week (I am skipping Monday on purpose because I have to work this weekend and my apartment needs attention)

*New breakfast options including smoothies! (I got new frozen fruit for this)

*Make it to three weeks without soda

It is Superbowl Sunday next week and my plan is to make some fun food instead of ordering pizza or something like that.

I am undecided as of now if i want to weigh in Friday morning or wait until next Monday. I will see how my week goes and decide then. Probably would more ideal to wait until Monday.

Have a great week!


Start Killing It 2018

Happy New Year!

I am excited for the New Year it’s going to be the best ever! I have been choosing my word for awhile and actually it’s 3

Start Killing It.

Originally it was going to be just Start which was one of my blogger friend Crystal’s word for 2017 because it made total sense because I need to START things. My word last year STRIVE severed me well. Then I got my studio DIY clutch for December:


Then I realized all 3 words were perfect!

As for some of my goals include getting back to the gym and start a normal routine with it again. I also signed up for Trek up The Tower in February so I really need to get into gear for it since I want to beat my time in 2015. Also I want to quit drinking pop for good.

To keep track of going to the gym and no drinking pop, I downloaded this Don’t break the chain Calendar  from Karen Kavett which you can write down whatever you decide to do and you can keep track!

Let’s start killing it in 2018!



2017 Recap

Hello! It’s been a while. But now I can finally write this….


I officially graduated (got my diploma) December 20, 2017. A 100 pound burden has been lifted off my shoulders. Let me tell you the last 8 weeks prior to that were rough.  I lost a lot of sleep, was stressed to the max and it a toll on my body. Although I wasn’t sick sick (you know cold or flu *knocks wood*) but I had a lot anxiety which caused my stomach to hurt or gave me diarrhea (TMI)  plus endless headaches. I often felt light headed too which scared me so I tried to sit as much as I could since I have a history of fainting. Luckily I managed to get through all my very hard trails and came out the other side.

My instructor tried to get to balance my life out with a schedule on an excel spread sheet which I am not a fan of digital media for something like that. She was trying to get me to plan my life down to a T which really bothered me.  I like to plan but I felt I was over planning you know?

I haven’t been to the gym only to work on my internship but not on my own. I tried to during that time but I just couldn’t force myself to do it. I chose sleep more often than going because I needed it more. I am all about self care. My instructor again wanted to know details of EVERYTHING about me going to the gym which again bothered me. I know there are some obstacles to overcome but I feel my progress is for me and me only.

So I am ending 2017 probably at my heaviest that I have been since I originally lost all my weight I haven’t weighed in since October but I am okay with that.

2018 is going to be my year (more on that later) I am excited! I will be back to blogging a bit more soon too. Doing my weekly check ins and weigh ins.

Stay tuned and have a Happy New Year!



August Bullet Journal

I can’t believe it’s August already!!  Where did July go?

As you know, I’ve been doing somewhat of a bullet journal which I incorporated with my regular journal. I used to be a big journaling but now with everything online I’ve shied away from it. I still write in it but not as often as I should be.  So what I have been doing is drawing out a calendar/tracker to monitor certain things that I’ve chosen and also my monthly goals. This is way I open my journal more and re-read my goals etc so I don’t forget them.

I do have a regular planner too but I use that for everything else including keeping track of my homework.

I have been bullet journaling since April and I shared June’s but not July’s only because I got busy with vacation, the start of the new semester, etc.  It wasn’t that great of a month anyways so it’s a new month a clean slate and new goals!

Here’s August’s bullet journal (I think my best one yet!)



I had for July’s jumped ahead a few pages in my journal and drew it out but I didn’t use all those pages for my thoughts (I have almost caught up) so I did August’s page after July’s it took me a while to it get just right. I did black sharpie over my boxes this time so it’s stands out a bit more

For my tracker I did it a bit different: I am going to track my water instead of how often I drink a pop (which I had before) I think I got discouraged with that so I figured to get rid of it altogether and just highlight the good which is drinking more water. I will still track my workouts like before and when I weigh in (Which I have yet to do but plan to after work).

August goals:

One of things I want to do is enter a pin up pageant happening in September! I missed my chance last year so I am going early to register! I want to get out of my comfort zone and meet more people in the pinup community

Loose 5 pounds. Yes I’ve written this before and I have been half assed about it. But I really need to get back on track!

Do well in school. This is my last semester on campus before my internship, and before I go online for Gen Ed’s for the next year. So it is important that I still work hard and be the best me I can be.

More water less pop. July was not a good month for me. I am really going to try this month!

Workout 3x’s a week/walk more. I need to get back into my routine. With me having to take a group exercise class each week has given a bit of a push to go to the gym again I just need to make the commitment again and the Y will be closing coming up for the week (for cleaning) so that means going to the other gym that I go to for school (Prairie Life in Omaha) to attend classes and actually workout there for reals on my own. That’s a big step for me. Also that the weather is starting to cool down a bit (well sort of) I need to start walking again too.

Be more positive. This is hard one for me. I tend to be dwell on certain things but I need to move forward and I’ve done more self talk as well that I can give myself that “push” I need to keep moving forward.

Last but not least I have a pin up shoot at the end of August. This will be my 3rd shoot and I am really excited for it. I haven’t been feeling like myself lately so I think getting glammed up and feeling pretty might help.

And I wrote my goals on a different page instead of my calendar since sharpies bleed through thinner paper. I like this set up I think. Still a work in progress!

Have a great month! I’ll be back soon with some more meal prep ideas!